Fascinating thing happened today. My wife and I had dinner at my mother's house, and there were several points during the dinner when I found myself just staring at my wife, awed by her beauty. My wife is a beautiful woman - a former model, in fact - but I have taken her beauty for granted many times over the course our marriage. I've felt she was starting to look old, gaining weight, etc. You know, the normal things that happens to every single human being on the planet. Of course, I'm sure I was fixating on her outer appearance and looking for any cracks so that I could justify my resistance to physical intimacy with her and continue my porn habit.
After dinner, I told her that I was awed by her beauty tonight, and she said she couldn't remember the last time I told her that. She paused and went on, "Maybe it's also because you haven't been watching porn and comparing me to those fake women."
I think she's right. When we got home, I caught her changing in the closet, gave her big a hug, and let my hands explore her body. I didn't push her towards sex, in part because I was afraid my PIED was still in effect and also because I just didn't want to push her. But after all, it was wonderful to connect with her physically even a little bit.