I am a 27 year old, gay, porn addict. I have struggled a lot with my gay orientation and porn has been a go to source when I felt down. At first it was a normal activity and I was able to stop doing it when I wanted to stop but things have changed a lot in last 7 years. I am addicted now. I had been able to stay away from it for 100 days at most and I returned back to it. It has ruined my life. I am like a mouse that is fed when pushing the lever. The mouse will keep pushing even when it is given electric shock. I have spent hours and days in front of porn screens and lost all my motivation for doing any meaningful activity for my life. I want to get my life back. I promise that I will not watch porn or masturbate anymore and each day I will post here my feelings and daily activities. Currently, I a am an overweight, suicidal person and I will change this. I deserve a better life. Dopamine rush is what pushes me here and I know it won't be too easy but I will. My prefrontal cortex will get back to a healthy person's. I will be able to lose weight, study, work and enjoy my life.
March 21, 2022 will be start of a new life. I am reborn.
March 21, 2022 will be start of a new life. I am reborn.