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ladysudan

ladysudan

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Day 25: 8 July

No PMO.

There are times when I hate using my laptop or my phone. I check my Instagram...there are no new messages but then I see people with whom I completed my schooling. I do get jealous by seeing so many great things happening in their lives. I'm happy for them but then there's me....stuck in the middle of nowhere. I want to recover but then I'm so not ready to leave my comfort zone at the very same time.

I feel like I need to disappear for a year. I felt so relieved and restless at the very same time when my brother took my phone from me for 8 months. Those 8 months were the period I saw my p habits get in control and I saw my life getting back into track. I also stopped using social media for that period. So basically there was no one or nothing that could mess up with my brain. He pushed me to do better and if he had been with me for some more months I would have recovered completely but you know he has a life of his own.

(I was 11 years old when I might have googled something that was inappropriate and he ultimately realized what I might fall into. He did not tell me much about it at that time and it's still the same but his insights and intuitions about anything were never really wrong.)

After that, he went to some other country for studying and I fell back into my habits. I'm again checking about others' lives, making myself sad and overthinking about every god damn time. Instagram is indeed a soft porn these days but those were never a trigger for me because I think it's fake and bullshit. So I follow a cat page.

Maybe it's time I leave everyone and everything behind and so I have decided to quit Instagram, YouTube and ofc PMO for 1 year.
 
SmokenMirrors

SmokenMirrors

Well-Known Member
ladysudan said:
Day 25: 8 July

No PMO.

There are times when I hate using my laptop or my phone. I check my Instagram...there are no new messages but then I see people with whom I completed my schooling. I do get jealous by seeing so many great things happening in their lives. I'm happy for them but then there's me....stuck in the middle of nowhere. I want to recover but then I'm so not ready to leave my comfort zone at the very same time.

I feel like I need to disappear for a year. I felt so relieved and restless at the very same time when my brother took my phone from me for 8 months. Those 8 months were the period I saw my p habits get in control and I saw my life getting back into track. I also stopped using social media for that period. So basically there was no one or nothing that could mess up with my brain. He pushed me to do better and if he had been with me for some more months I would have recovered completely but you know he has a life of his own.

(I was 11 years old when I might have googled something that was inappropriate and he ultimately realized what I might fall into. He did not tell me much about it at that time and it's still the same but his insights and intuitions about anything were never really wrong.)

After that, he went to some other country for studying and I fell back into my habits. I'm again checking about others' lives, making myself sad and overthinking about every god damn time. Instagram is indeed a soft porn these days but those were never a trigger for me because I think it's fake and bullshit. So I follow a cat page.

Maybe it's time I leave everyone and everything behind and so I have decided to quit Instagram, YouTube and ofc PMO for 1 year.
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Great plan! Social media reinforces Porn habits, it's all about the dopamine hits
 
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