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Day 877 (no PMO) Day 15 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes) Back to having not too much to report: occasionally having unwanted sexual thoughts that I know are triggered by depression/stress/anxiety and the porn addiction. Doing my best to say no and shutting those thoughts down. I'm...

Day 870 (no PMO) Day 8 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes) An old, wise fish swims past two young fish and asks '"how's the water?" "Fine," they reply. A moment later, one of the young fish asks the other "what is water?" When we're in the grips of an addiction and behaving badly, we...

I'm trying the same thing, but still being in flatline more or less means that MO is generally not a lot of fun for me. I debate in my mind about not wanting to lose my sexuality vs. continuing to beat an addiction. Certainly I have better things to do with my spare time...

Day 863 (no PMO) Day 1 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes) Argh! I was doing really well, and then... My experience speaks to the danger of triggers lurking where you don't suspect them. I was on Facebook, and Zuckerberg's robots decided that some woman's sexy video should be in my reels...

Day 850 (no PMO) Day 50 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes) Same as last post: What's left of the addiction is still trying to trick me, but I'm putting up a wall, Cask of Amontillado style. ;)

I analyze this behavior as your addiction trying to make a compromise... Okay, fine, you're not going to look at porn and jerk off any more. What about just looking at porn? Okay, fine, no looking at porn either. What about looking at sexy girls with their clothes on? Okay, okay, but you need...

Day 840 (no PMO) Day 40 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes) Been awhile since I posted, but not too much to report. Getting better at shutting down sexual thoughts and urges to MO that I know are linked to stress, anxiety, and other bad vibes. What's left of the addiction inside my brain...

I'm sure you have thought of this already, but PMO certainly isn't a life improvement. Whatever the situation or problem, PMO is never the answer. Get back in the saddle and ride on, Maple.

Day 824 (no PMO) Day 24 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes) 2+ years of no PMO, and yet I feel like the addiction still has a grip on me. My default reaction to stress and anxiety is always the same: sexual thoughts and the urge to MO. Not happening, but it reminds me of a quote from the...

Day 811 (no PMO) Day 11 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes) While I'm proud of being 2+ years clean of PMO, I realize that the damage has been done and the awful formula is still pretty strong in my troubled mind: anxiety + sexual thoughts + masturbation = relief. That equation is totally...

Day 806 (no PMO) Day 6 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes) Last Sunday I strayed from the path and wasted time looking at porn. Later, some MO. It became one of those "enough is enough" moments where I was appalled and disappointed by the bullshit and my inability to know better. The idea...

Thanks for this interesting post, Bobitkitkit. And good work on deleting social media apps and spending less time on your phone. I think porn addicts also struggle with a weird internet addiction as well. People spend way too much time scrolling, scrolling, scrolling...and looking for what...

Day 796 (no PMO) Day 24 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes) Not much to report (I guess that's a good thing). Still keeping away from looking at things I shouldn't and still reciting my mantra: You will never find any solutions, comfort, or peace by looking at porn.

Good luck Achilles. One day at a time. One week at a time. One month at a time. You can do it!

:LOL: After a year of no PMO, I was pleasantly surprised to experience this, too. At first I thought "yeah right", but it's true. I'm still in flatline hell, but I'd rather be here than jerking off to porn.

Day 785 (no PMO) Day 13 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes) My new mantra: You will never find any solutions, comfort, or peace by looking at porn. I have literally repeated this to myself over and over inside my head for the past week. My stress has eased somewhat, but generally feeling...

Day 779 (no PMO) Day 7 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes) Last Sunday I fell into the trap of looking at porn / substitutes. 😔 Lots of stress at work that follows me into my personal life, so my troubled mind wants some relief and peace and looks for it in the wrong places. Still fragile...

It was prescribed to me as a teenager, so that was a long time ago. Mainly I just remember the other side effects.

Day 772 (no PMO) Day 8 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes) Still feeling fragile and vulnerable, but doing my best to stay on the path.

I more or less feel the same way about flatline. Yeah, it's a bummer, but I know I'm doing all that I can. There's certainly more to life than boners, so I stay busy doing other healthy and productive things.