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  1. Emptyroom

    What you give is what you get (I went 580 days. Relapsed. Finally back on track.

    Day 59. You have to let yourself have fun sometimes. I was out on a climate-protest yesterday. I played fiddle on stage. Later me and some friends ate dinner together and drank some beer and watched Youtube-videos until 1 AM. It was fun and I was in good company, but I have a very mild...
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    What you give is what you get (I went 580 days. Relapsed. Finally back on track.

    I think it is a lot of reasons for you feel that urge to go back to PMO. Anxiety is one thing but I would think anxiety is more of a symptom of something or a symptom of a combination of things. Like an inability to handle your thought or to deal with life and its problems in a positive way. I'm...
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    What you give is what you get (I went 580 days. Relapsed. Finally back on track.

    Today was a mixed day again. I have felt like a pig today because of my actions last night and I have been ogling young women again today. I feel like a creep. Ugh! But I know that I can be a good person and a gentleman too! I feel that I have a high moral. Some of the time... I did all my...
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    What you give is what you get (I went 580 days. Relapsed. Finally back on track.

    I had a small non-P relapse tonight. I spent almost five hours on a chat-site for strangers where I did some sex-chatting. I M.ed and O:ed a little at one point.. It was like playing a slot-machine and I felt a dopamine rush from it. I felt a bit drunk. For some reason my blocker didn't work...
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    What you give is what you get (I went 580 days. Relapsed. Finally back on track.

    Day 54. Today has been a mixed day. I was very lazy during the morning and I didn't really do much until the afternoon. I made an easy but good lunch and then I went to a library and worked all day alone and I think I did some good work. So my workday wasn't wasted even though I somehow feel...
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    What you give is what you get (I went 580 days. Relapsed. Finally back on track.

    Thank you for that comment! I have messaged you privately!
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    What you give is what you get (I went 580 days. Relapsed. Finally back on track.

    Thank you for giving me this key to recovery. You put it really well. I needed that. Have a good day! /J
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    What you give is what you get (I went 580 days. Relapsed. Finally back on track.

    day 52. I have noticed some patterns that I have to change. 1. I have been ogling woman strangers' bodies that I see when I feel that they aren't looking. This is really bad, selfish and disrespectful. I will really make an effort to stop this behaviour. 2. I touch myself to much. I have been...
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    What you give is what you get (I went 580 days. Relapsed. Finally back on track.

    Thank you for writing. You make a good point. I feel that I have been thinking of good habits as things that are unsustainable or hard to maintain in the long run. Like juggling, an endurance game as you said (you can't juggle forever). My perceptions are to a high extent influenced by my past...
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    What you give is what you get (I went 580 days. Relapsed. Finally back on track.

    Thank you Phineas! Yes. Meditation is a lot like running for me. When I get the habit in I really enjoy running and it makes my energy better during the day! The pattern with that is a lot like my reboots actually. I stay on the horse for a while then I fall off and then I try again after a...
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    What you give is what you get (I went 580 days. Relapsed. Finally back on track.

    Day 49. I felt some urges today. I had an old classmate over at my apartment. We just talked and played music but I think that my subconscious wanted to sleep with her so I had cravings when she left. I look forward to that moment when women stop being like objects for me again. I know that It...
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    What you give is what you get (I went 580 days. Relapsed. Finally back on track.

    Day 47. Here is a poem that I wrote today! I saw that someone else had written a poem on this forum before so I wanted to do one as well. Cheers! Moving forward alone towards a glistening shore I remembered myself, as on a moon-rock roving spinning in space, away from the earth getting caught...
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    This time I have to quit it for good!

    Remember to quickly set a higher goal than 90 days! Otherwise you could become complacent and aimless and get more urges! That is my experience anyway!
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    Every moment a chance to begin again - Reboot Journal

    Welcome back! You have made the right choice! The past is the past and the future is in the making! You are right about control; It isn't black or white. I hope your date will go fine! Cheers! /Emptyroom
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    Man_in_30s_trying_to_quit_from_last_10years

    Hi! I have been reading your posts. This last post is very familiar to what you wrote in 2020. I think it would be beneficial for you to think about what is different now compared to then. Are you doing the same thing and expecting different results? I think having a big goal is a good thing...
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    Anyone struggling with anger management too?

    I would like to recommend videos by this guy. He specialises on anger management . Here is a video from him: here is another one:
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    What you give is what you get (I went 580 days. Relapsed. Finally back on track.

    day 44. I feel the sexual energy in my body. I get thoughts about having selfish sex with people and I keep touching myself. I even M:ed today without O. I feel that something has to change for me. I don't want to watch P again. I don't want to lose my progress but I feel like I am taking small...
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    What you give is what you get (I went 580 days. Relapsed. Finally back on track.

    Day 42. I don't feel very safe. I feel that I am standing about 5 meters away from the slippery slope. The doomsday-clock is 25 minutes to twelve. To be more clear and less pretentious, I mean that I have had some minor urges. It feels really scary but I feel that only a few thoughts or one or...
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    What you give is what you get (I went 580 days. Relapsed. Finally back on track.

    Day 39. It is Sunday. I feel that I am allowed to be a little lazy today. I have studied a lot and I feel that I can keep up with the work for now. I have a new computer and I think that it somehow helps me. But I will have to block webbsites all over again. I will do that today. I have been on...
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    Fighting The New Drug

    Hey Rchie99! What a great and brave thing for you to make a video like that. That's a real achievement that you did that and a great step towards your' goals! Cheers! /Emptyroom
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