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Porn last week: 2 Porn this week: 5 Day 0 Rough week, I've had the place to myself with my wife out of town. It turns out my own internal motivation is very low, so as soon as I have the means to watch porn uninhibited by others in the house, I do it. Talked with my therapist about the...

Porn last week: 2 Porn this week: 3 Day 1

Porn last week: 2 Porn this week: 3 Day 0 And we keep moving.

Porn last week: ?? Porn this week: 1 Day 1

I feel you man, it gets to that point where it isn’t even remotely fun or pleasurable, it’s just boring and disgusting and sad and you can tell you’re just going through the motions to soothe something. It sucks. I hope you feel better and get some relief from it soon.

I've been in a funk lately. A bit of a mental/emotional funk, with low motivation and bad sleep habits creeping in. With that, not surprisingly, has come an uptick in my porn usage again. The dumbest thing is how not into it I am, as I'm doing it. I'm sitting there, disgusted and even bored by...

I know someone one here a while ago recommended blockers to me because they were working for him. Personally, if it were foolproof, and it made it so that there were no way for me to access adult content whether I wanted to or not, I'd take it. I'm not so proud as to think I will never have a...

So it’s been over a month again, eh? Here’s one problem: I have yet to find a way to get my porn blocker to work in a way that I can’t simply just get around it when I want to. If I change the password, I can just click “forgot password.” I figured out a way to lock down the app so it’s harder...

pretty bad start to this week. Watched porn yesterday and then again this morning. I'm not even really into it. It's just to feel some sort of stimulation. I guess it's depression? I feel low right now. Not even intensely sad or distraught, just spent. I had gotten into a decent rhythm with...

Good morning. Porn this week: 3? Day 1

Went to therapy today, got some things off my chest. Working on being honest with no filter and admitting stuff I'm really ashamed of, and trying to talk to the part of myself I'm ashamed of with understanding and compassion, but still firmness. I'm at work now, but it's slow. About a half hour...

Going to try to get back into a daily habit of at least checking in. Porn this week: 2? Day 1

Been slacking on posting here! Slacking in real life as well. I’ve been feeling low-energy lately, and using that as an excuse to be lax on my goals and visions for myself. Lately realized, the question “what do YOU want?” causes a near panic response from me. I really don’t know how to answer...

Well, it seems that being at work has become a trigger for porn use for me. I have a lot of times when I’m alone in the office, and with little to do. I used porn at the end of the day at work again yesterday. My mind feels restless lately. I woke up around 3:30 am last night and couldn’t get...

I did manage to catch some rest over the weekend. Didn’t get out much, but I did do some grocery shopping and cooked a meal yesterday for dinner. I’ve realized recently it’s been going on 2 years since I last played the violin. In fact, it’s broken now and it needs to go to the shop. Only a few...

Still tired and not getting enough sleep. Worked from home yesterday and took a porn break right in the middle of it. It’s been weird with my wife lately, we haven’t been intimate and she says it’s because she’s stressed about the election. We were on opposite sides this time, but she only found...

Ah, I’m not doing great. There’s stress in my marriage right now regarding this stupid election. I’ve been burning my candle at both ends, and yesterday I watched porn twice. Once at the end of my work day, after trying to fight off the urges for a while, and again, at 1 in the morning when I...

Day 2. I’m trying to write a poem for my wife for our first anniversary. I haven’t really written a poem since grade school when I had an assignment to, so I’m really out of my depth but it’s been a fun exercise. I’m about halfway done with it but really need to finish it today if I can. Porn...

I’ve had a tough time convincing myself to come back on here. For a while it seemed like I was doing better without being on here and the constant reminder of porn. I had a few weeks where I used porn once a week, which would certainly be an improvement for me. But lately I’ve been regressing a...

Thanks man. But the struggle goes on. I have a tendency to fall back into old habits. Yesterday I spiraled a bit and had a pretty long session. Of course it killed my mood afterwards. I’m just tired of making excuses. A new day begins. Porn last week: 2 Porn this week: 3 Day 1.