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Day 1 I started peeking a little bit on Sunday night, and Monday porn was all I could think about. It was distracting and unpleasant, but I stayed strong right up until the end of the day, then I cracked and started scrolling thru NSFW stuff. On Tuesday I continued to peek here and there, but...

Day 11 I'm trying to be extra vigilant today, because the weekends are when I usually have a relapse. And I also had a weed hangover this morning, which is also a major trigger for me. I worked a half day at work today, and so did the wife. Were going to have a lunch date and then take the...

I do remember that now that you mention it.

Day 9 I had a meeting with my psychiatrist yesterday evening. The one who manages my anti-psycho meds. I described my recent depressive cycle to her, and how it was the worst I have experienced ever in my life. I told her how confusing the whole thing was, because I had been doing so good...

There was that dude Androg who was on here a while back. But he was kind of a prick lol. He pissed me off several times, and I recall other people having similar sentiments about the guy. I actually stopped posting here for a long time because of his constant nonsensical input, so I can't say...

I was thinking the same thing a while back. It feels like a dead forum, honestly. It's a shame that nobody can sign up so we can get some new blood in here. Plus, what happened to the moderators? There's things you can't do without their "approval" and they seem have disappeared. I...

Day 8

Day 7 Kinda shitty today. Rained all fucking day, got soaked at work and came home to a flooded basement. Third time it's flooded this month. I logged over 15 hrs of overtime this week, and I'm starting to feel the strain. On my relationships and on my sanity. Ended the day on a positive...

Day 6

Day 5 Had a really nice date with the wife after work yesterday. We went in for a really long and relaxing couples massage, then dinner at a local calzone spot. It was a nice evening Today I'm going fishing. I live for fishing, it's one of the best parts of being alive. Feels good to be...

Day 4 My back hurts like a mofo. It's hotter than dogshit outside. Work was brutal. I know, I'm just a fucking ray of sunshine. That's all for today

Day 3 Im feeling a lot better about things today. Mentally, emotionally, and physically. Things will be okay

True story. As long as we don't quit, we are never completely defeated

Checking in, it's been a while. Life has been quite strange, to put it lightly. There have been lots of changes, most of them for the better. I made a job change recently and that turned out to be a huge positive. I've also been going to the gym regularly, trying to get back into running. I...

No Smoke: 91 days No Porn: 20 days Today marks an important milestone for me today. I am 5 years sober from alcohol as of this morning. Not a drop in 5 years. I thought I would feel more jovial about it, but now that it's here it just seems like another day. I still wanted to mark the...

No Smoke: 60 days No PMO: 26 days Not going to lie, life has been rough this year so far. My anger turned into all-out rage and I have been struggling with depression so badly that I was beginning to feel suicidal. Feeling like a waste of life and a detriment to my family is the worst...

Day 15 Just thought I'd check in. My mental state is quite unstable. I owe my wife and all my close friends apologies. I am so tired of dragging everyone down with me, it feels like my broken brain is corroding my relationships. I decided last week that it is time to explore the option of...

I have a drug problem. I have an anger problem, a really severe anger problem. I'm currently focused on those two issues, and I'm leaving my porn battle on the back burner for now. My anger and the drugs I use to control it are far more damaging to my life than porn ever was. I know this is...

Day 4 no porn Day 0 no smoke Still not sleeping well. I refurbished my CPAP last night in hopes of better sleep but it was not to be. I'm struggling with not smoking weed. I have a bowl burning while I type this actually. It's harder to abstain at the moment due to having a lot of it piled up...

I feel ya. Same. I also didn't make it thru the Christmas fuckery clean, it's frustrating. I fucking beat alcohol bro, and I can't believe that porn is a tougher opponent. Who knew