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Day 12 Didn't sleep brilliantly last night and felt absolutely exhausted most of today as a result. Woke up fairly early and struggled to get back to sleep and found myself, just before I actually had to get out of bed, scrolling through IG again and looking at some fairly suggestible content...

Day 11 A few more tempting thoughts in bed this morning, but managed to act on them significantly less company to yesterday. I then became consumed in my day - in the office and then out for dinner with old friends this evening. Very little time to even think about PMO. Just getting into...

Day 10 Not quite sure what to make of today. After last night's post musing on MO, I found myself waking up quite aroused first thing, in part prompted by a dream of accessing PMO. I found myself in bed on IG looking at some pictures on my feed that were definitely pretty provocative, but...

Day 9 Another day at home on caring duty. Felt a bit more 'normal', but still quite upsetting in moments to recognise the decline. Day just ambled on by without too many thoughts of PMO, until cleaning my teeth and getting ready for bed that is, at which point a fairly seductive voice in my...

Day 8 Today was spent pretty much entirely caring for my dad - even with other family members around, it was fairly non stop. Either busy in the 'doing' of caring, or not able to relax, in anticipation of the next thing that he will need help with. I'm only here for a couple of days so am...

Thanks @Blondie that means a lot. And yes you are right - my 30s are already accelerating on by, and it's sure as hell not going to slow down. How much we will regret all the time wasted to porn when it's too late to do anything about it.

I love the summiting analogy @Chris, thanks for taking the time to post that. You're racking up some great numbers too, way to go!

Day 7 I got home to see my parents today and it was really tough - my elderly father is recovering from an operation and he is not doing well at all. It's like it's aged him 15 years overnight and he's no longer able to go to the toilet by himself and can barely walk. It's quite upsetting to...

Way to go @Blondie - closing in on that year milestone!

Great work making it to 3 weeks clean @Qwertyxyz - that's fantastic! Imagine how good it will feel getting to a month.

Day 6 Fewer thoughts of porn today - definitely linked to less work stresses compared to recent days. Increasingly realising that work stress is a major source of temptation - largely as an escape mechanism - is incredibly revealing. Cooked a meal for my new housemate and his GF tonight...

Day 5 More intrusive thoughts this morning - the feeling that I'm 'missing out' on something really nice and soothing and exciting, by not giving in. But those thoughts went away as I got into the day, and were likely linked to a stressful work thing this afternoon that I was worrying about...

Day 4 Not getting much time to post at the moment as things are so busy but pleased to have another clean day to report. Some intrusive thoughts earlier with feelings that it would be very nice to put on the old comfort blanket, but managed to get past those, partly through spending time in...

Day 3 Today was possibly the busiest and one of the - on the surface - most stressful days of my life. Am crashing into bed now - still amongst boxes, bags and general chaos - but pleased to say it's a clean day and the start of a new life chapter too. Onwards and upwards.

Have had a horrendously busy day - in the process of moving house and have been sorting stuff pretty much non stop since waking up. Absolutely done in and tomorrow might be even busier, but finding some solace in managing to stay clean, actively avoiding taking notice of a couple of triggering...

Thanks hugely @G.123 and @Blondie, that means a lot. Unfortunately I managed to fall straight off the wagon again and the last week and a bit has been pretty rough, definitely in part triggered by work and life being crazy right now. But I still know I have to keep trying, and today has been a...

It's been a long time since I've posted here. Lots and lots of life has happened, and despite some good progress, the last week has seen falling back into old ways. I've been kidding myself that I can be half in with porn and not eventually find myself sliding back into completely destructive...

Ended up slipping Monday and Tuesday, which was not great, but they were also less self destructive slips than what has come before over the last few weeks. Yesterday I returned a laptop I had basically purchased nearly a month ago in a moment of weakness so I could dive back into p*rn. By the...

Thanks for checking in @Dungalef - truthfully, not well. The last couple of weeks have been filled with more binges and not really trying that hard at all to get out of the hole. There's been a lot of wasted time, energy and money poured into the never ending pit of filth in this time and I can...

I've had a rough couple of weeks since I last posted. Was slipping back into bad habits but still maintaining some semblance of control until last Thursday when I slipped really badly. I ended up buying a laptop on the way home from work essentially just so I could use it to binge on PMO. And...