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Day 1 without masturbation. Maybe day 30 without porn. Today is a sunny day. Life has challenges ahead. I want to face them. There are fears and uncertainties, but I am going towards them. This is my life, this is my family. I am fighting for my life and my family and facing adversity head on...

more setbacks came. but the positive thing was to notice that I could act in the midst of difficulties and save my loved ones in times of need. now everything is for the better. I also cried my tears alone at night. the pain came out of me. that distress and fear. I cried and prayed. I feel...

At least I know the mechanisms of action in my own being. my own illnesses and weaknesses. I am fighting today to make today a good day. various adversities will come and there will always be a reason why I would escape to masturbation and why I feel restless inside. I will not let resistance...

Life feels heavy. Many setbacks and a serious injury to a child from sport accident. I took a long-awaited vacation sick. Negotiations for a change at work began and my job is under threat. Money is tight. I feel anxious and have used my credit card too much when my expenses exceed my income...

I want to tell you that I've been on a silence retreat without the internet, enjoying a Thai latte and hugging trees during this break. But somehow it havent work like that, I am healthier than before over 600 days reboot, but I didn't quite get rid of porn and masturbation. this community is...

Day 0. It's easier to write here when things are going well or progressing on some respectable metric. It's harder when you don't meet the progress on the metrics. But i am on my track to sober life. I am not quitting this. Keep going.

Day 8. Towards the weekend. There is a lot to do in life, it feels like recovery is more of a wavy curve than a straight line to better life. Challenges follow better days and the same challenges are always faced again. I hope that healing happens and is sufficient. Have you received any kind of...

Day 2. I have had whole october day twos and threes about masturbation. Its frustrating. In a way, the long reboot (667 days or something) has worked on my brain. I now have a sex life with my wife and less brain fog. However, I can't say that I'm completely healthy, when I think that I've been...

Day 3. this is about sobriety. i don't give room to porn. i don't give room to masturbation to avoid difficulties. i focus on life. i focus on good things. i set goals for every day that i strive for. everything has to start from balance and peace. i bury my ego and listen to its screams. i...

Mostly good days. I am thinking do I need at the moment just normal days count without porn and jerking or something different.. what you think, after aproximatly two years rebooting just days or something like this? Every day is either progress or setback. -1. (you didn't do much) -2...

Had a great weekend with my wife with closeness and even sex. Now everyday life and the pressures of work are piling up in my mind. Fears and discomfort. avoiding them has been my way of coping. now maybe I will sing and face all my fears and monsters, if it eats me at least for now the pain...

It is with great sadness that I have to announce that I slipped up and watched porn and jerked off. I thought I would say it out loud because honesty is the only thing that keeps me sane and I don't want to be caught up in a web of lies. That's about the hero numbers here.. I won't start...

On this reboot trip 667 days. I have had amazing days in good and also in bad lately. I believe in good, want to concentrate on it and make me free.

Day 654 and 8. I try to focus on life and put everything into it. To focus on my loved ones and my own and their well-being. Fears strike sometimes, I try to smile and face them. Sometimes it works. Life is short here on earth. We have to fast-forward ourselves to life, even to the point of...

Day 652 and 6. Im happy to read wise words from @Blondie today. Also sone good ideas from here https://open.substack.com/pub/improvebypathsofstoicism/p/comfort-is-the-new-poison?r=3eeyr8&utm_medium=ios Most people aren’t failing because life is hard. They’re falling apart because life is too...

Make it impossible to happen, but some adult content block on webrouter, your mobilephone and all the equipments. Its much easier to remember when you cant do it. Keep going! We all are free from porn, we just dont notice it yet 😁

Day 644 and 5. be a doer in good things. rest after work. tolerate discomfort. I easily don't do good things, I feel bad, I relieve it by jerking off and it gets even worse and I relieve it more by jerking off. For some reason it hasn't brought good results. Now I'm wondering if I should try...

Day 641 and 2. Good and bad things happen. For my part, I try to keep that ratio on positive side, that I do more good than bad. My life is like an onion, the contents of which I examine layer by layer. Now I am strongly confident that I am fighting the good fight and taking care of my own place!!!

Day 638 and 6. I have to be strong. I have to be an adult. My daughter has been bullied and needs support. It opens up old wounds. It reminds me of my childhood hell. I am an adult now. I support my child and help her. My heart bleeds because of the pain I feel for my child. I can no longer...

Day 636 and 4. Prioritizing the future helps you see that simply abstaining from sex is not recovery and that the decision to stop addictive behavior is a positive choice and not just resignation to fate. Game is going harder, but i am pretty sure that these days, months and year(s) has made me...