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Days 25 - 30. As always I have been quite busy the last few days. I went out with L again over the weekend. We went to the cinema to watch a new film ("I Swear" is excellent by the way!) and then stopped for a drink on the way back. There was a little bit of sexual innuendo from L and I think...

Thanks GBS. I appreciate it mate. Yes it is something I've given a lot of thought to. I will have to come to a decision soon though!

Days 22, 23 and 24. It's been a busy few days for me, hence me not catching up on here. I do feel that this process helps me to "stick to the path" so to speak, and any additional help we can get when fighting this disease (because that's exactly what it is) can only be a positive. I have...

I'm so, so sorry for your loss GBS. I have been there before and it is absolutely heartbreaking. What I will say though is that I genuinely believe that you will see your beautiful dogs again when it's your time. They will be waiting for you. Chin up, mate.

Day 21. So today has been eventful! I had my second date with L last night. We went for a drink in a nice country pub. I was paying particular attention to her body language and noticed that she was gradually sitting a little bit closer to me each time she left to visit the bathroom and such...

Day 18. I have noticed very little libido/horniness today but then again, today has been a bit of a blur with work and a rather painful visit to the dentist. I share this not to elicit sympathy but to share yet another hardly earth-shattering (and probably already well-known theory) - keeping...

Days 19 and 20. I've been busy these last couple of days with work and such. I'm definitely noticing a return of libido now. It's very strange how my brain seems to be trying to get itself back onto an even keel after a period of enforced abstention. It's almost like it's reeling after being...

Day 17. I'm noticing libido starting to return a bit today. I'm finding that I'm semi-edging in my sleep a bit(!) Not actual M but it indicates to me that my neural wiring actually associates feelings of arousal (or just plain horniness to put it bluntly!) with my hand. My theory at this stage...

Day 16. I've definitely noticed the creep-in of naughty thoughts today. I was out with a female friend earlier and definitely found myself more "attracted" to her physically than I have been before. This all sounds a bit inappropriate and I should point out that there's nothing going on between...

Day 15. My first two full weeks without PMO. I'm starting to get some semblance of libido back today, but I'm also getting more of a positive "urge" (for lack of a better word) to socialise and speak to women. I'm making more of an effort to pass random comments with women, whereas I would not...

Days 13 and 14! This weekend has been quite positive for me. I had a nice time on my date with L and am seeing her again next week on Friday night for date 2. Fingers crossed! I've found that I've found myself subconsciously and subtly "edging" a little bit and having to consciously stop myself...

Day 12 (technically it's after midnight here in the UK so I suppose it's Day 13...meh!). I have not long been in from my date, which was my first actual, organised date with a woman in (genuinely) about 20 years. It was a lovely experience and we got on very well and I'm pleased that she...

Day 11. Had a few "low" moments today. Not so much depression but more just "Why am I even bothering to do this?" kind of thoughts. My theory is that this is my brain reacting to the lack of stimulus that it normally gets from PMO. This can often happen to drug addicts and alcoholics as well - a...

Day 10! Changes seem to be afoot for me! I was at the pool earlier today and was in the hot tub/spa for a dip after I'd finished my swim. A decent-looking woman a little younger than me got in and I immediately started chatting to her. Just general chit-chat really but it turned out that we had...

Day 9. I've been keeping myself busy but haven't really noticed any urges today at all. I'm definitely more keen to engage in conversation with women though, even just harmless chit chat and was talking to a woman in the spa pool at the gym today. I wonder if it's a "social" aspect of our brains...

Day 8! My first full week without PMO completed. I have to admit, I feel different to how I expected. I have kept myself busy today and have definitely noticed that I'm looking at women more. We know that P deadens our reactions to real women somewhat, but I think it's only once you've had a...

Not too bad thanks GBS. We're in this for the long haul mate!

Day 7 today. Had a few drinks last night, nothing heavy but this can sometimes be a "risk" area for me when it comes to PMO. I actually managed to avoid any thoughts of PMO bar the odd, fleeting thought for a few seconds. I have had quite a busy day today so not really had my "typical" pattern...

Day 6. I woke up this morning to mild urges (I am a bit surprised at just how mild they were) after 6 days of no PMO. I have a date on Monday with a very hot (albeit slightly older than me at 50) woman near me that I got chatting to on Hinge. We've spoken on the phone a few times and got on...

You're doing great. Keep at it. Which particular aspect(s) of your sexuality are troubling you?