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Sorry to hear that, @Freerider, all of it. Glad the kid is getting better. And I know, I know, how all of that stress and pilings-on just makes you escape, or want to escape, to porn or something close to porn. If you're like me, it isn't fun when you're feeling this way, but it's numbing for...

So last week the kids had an evening event scheduled that we had to take them to and pick them up from, and that meant that the mid-week tryst that my wife and I had scheduled did not happen. And that meant unsatisfied me. The bad: sometimes I went looking for sexy pictures. The good: I...

You're working on it, and that's what matters!

Somebody posted a picture of a female hockey goalie (apparently they exist), not dressed for hockey, and I went looking for more pictures of her. But past me put up all sorts of blocks so the only pictures I found were pretty SFW. Thanks, past me.

Should? Yeah, if you were a machine. But you ain't. We're humans, and we get better slowly, in fits and starts and forwards and sometimes backwards.

Keep it up, @GBS!

Weird how if I simply don't look, the temptation to look goes way down. Although it being winter probably helps a lot, with no girls walking around in skimpy clothes. I do sometimes get distracted by Amazon suggestions for a something revealing, but even those have been brief and not real...

Going pretty good. Been long enough that I am both a) still aware that I gotta be careful and b) I'm not scared of the temptation. That's ok, so long as I don't start looking. Even a little "innocent" looking is bad for me.

@Orbiter, being sick is a killer for me too. I don't even really like looking at porn while sick, but it's the only that is guaranteed to distract me from how cruddy I feel. So I totally get this, and indeed, went through the same experience just last week. I've since set up blocks on my...

I had two week off work for Christmas break. The days when my wife and family were also home went fine, but then there was 4 or 5 days when they were away visiting grandparents and I stayed home to feed the farm animals. Plenty of time when no one was watching, and I took advantage of it. On...

Yesterday went well, right up until the last minute before bed, when I turned Safe Search off for a few minutes. It's perfectly predictable but still somehow manages to take me by surprise. Still working on the new habit of not leaving my phone by the bed. On the plus side, I was awake for...

Thursday and Friday and all weekend went well. Might've been a few peeks here and there but I know there were also a lot of time that I considered looking and didn't. Mostly I was much better at finding other things that engaged my brain and so there just wasn't idle time for thinking about...

Yesterday: good. A combination of being tired of giving in, tired of looking (there's a point at which your rational brain can say, to a temptation: "Uh, you know we just looked at that yesterday?") and finding other interesting things to distract myself instead. Today: looked at some bikinis...

I have to confess today: I went looking yesterday. The negative is that it happened at all; the positive is that it was mostly pretty soft-core. And that I ended the day by putting my phone away and not looking, when I thought about it right before bed. I'm very tired of fighting myself...

Yesterday went well. Today, a few slips already, so time to rein myself in.

It's hard to keep up here because a) when it's going well, I'm too busy with normal life to post and b) when it isn't I don't want to post because then I'd have to control myself or confess that I didn't. The last week or so was rough. But I made a change last night: at the beginning of the...

Wednesday and Thursday were good days. Today: so far so good, but I can tell the temptation is hovering just off-stage. And it's the end of the week and I'm feeling worn down, and my wife will be working overnight the next two nights. So I need to be aware that it could (probably will) get...

Yesterday I was starting to feel tempted. So I confronted the temptation directly by journaling about it and then actively looked for other things to do in place of: for me, that meant using AI to generate an entertaining (non-sexual!) story, which I could do in little bits of time across the day.

A constant battle, yep. We do our best to win more than we lose, and slowly make the winning percentage higher.

Good weekend, not a lot of temptation. Not a lot of pressure, either.