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So, it's been a busy week, and I just haven't had the time to log on and post. Last week I relapsed, and I can't remember exactly which day, but I'm going to say Thursday (October 9th) was the last day with PMO, day 0. So I'm calling last Friday day one, and today day 8. Today is a struggle. I...

Day 9 (Monday) Today is very difficult. I was very stressed out this weekend, but oddly not about my addiction. Or maybe I was and just didn't realize that's what had me stressed. Anyway, I'm getting through my Monday, and it's very difficult to focus on work.

Day 4 (Wednesday) It's been difficult, then not, then difficult again. I've had work and chores to keep me busy. I'm tired, but I've been tired since before I decided to quit again. I'm struggling with letting go. Like emotionally. The idea of "missing out" is strong. And that's tough. I know...

Day 2 (Monday) I spent a good amount of time Saturday night re reading my previous original thread, and caught some common themes. Regular exercise really helps me. Not just in breaking addiction, but in feeling better in life, generally. Boredom and stress lead to relapse. Sometimes it takes a...

It's been a few years (I think) since I posted here, or even got on this site to be honest. I've had some big changes in life, mostly good ones. I've been on and off the wagon so many times it's hard to count. I was so proud of myself for my progress when I made my first journal. I made it...

Day 2: I came clean to my GF two days ago. Things went well. Awkward and difficult, but she doesn't hate me. She wonders what she did wrong, which hurts to hear. I have a hard time taking care of myself. Like trying to make Dr appointments and doing paperwork for health insurance and all that...

Thanks for the links! I think I'll attend a zoom meeting this week.

Recommit: Day 0, November 5, 2023 I honestly hope that I can say this will be the last day I've ever willingly looked at pornography. I'll need everyone's help again. And I thank you in advance for it. What I'm feeling right this minute is guilt and shame and fear and anger at myself. And...

My gut says weakness. But IDK... beyond the animal impulse, maybe it's self destruction. Honestly most of the things in my life are going well. I have a wonderful life partner and started a pretty decent job. But there's that part of me that feels like I don't deserve it, or that like a lot of...

Wow. 4 months since I logged in :( I can't say much except I've been off the wagon, and it's definitely had a negative impact on my relationship and my overall mental state. The first few times I quit, before 2021, before I managed to go over a year, there wasn't much of a driving force. Then I...

Day 5 I've been busy and sleep deprived, but still on the wagon. Thanks for the support everyone!

Day 2 I didn't tell her, but it feels like things are good between us. I think I'll tell her after the vacation, or if she brings it up. Yesterday was a good day, and today has been good so far.

Day 0 Starting a new thread: https://forum.rebootnation.org/index.php?threads/25133/ Thank you everyone for your past, present, and future support throughout my journey. I wish all of you luck in yours.

Sounds silly, right? But that's how I've felt. "I can't start a new thread until I have my shit together. I need to have a plan in place, better starting blocks, so many days under my belt, etc." No. This place exists to help me and all of you get our shit together, to form our plans, to put...

Day 17 I'm struggling. Not just with recovery, but with getting my life on track. I have a big lack of motivation, and it sucks. Obviously the desire to fall back into bad habits is incredibly strong. I'm staying strong as best as I can, but I don't have the determination or resolve that I used to

Day 8 I know I haven't been on, and at this point I really should be. Things have been alright for the past week. No Porn, no MO. I have been self stimulating while fantasizing, and need to get that under control too. But I've also had other stuff to keep me busy, which is good. Idle hands and...

Day 2 I'm up early. Going to have some oatmeal and get in a workout. I texted my GF and she feels better this morning, which makes me feel better, which makes me feel less stressed out, and therefore less likely to struggle with addiction today. I have a few things to knock out, but I'd like to...

Seriously, this should be in a book.

February 26, 2023, My New Day 1: Wednesday, I made it far enough into the day that I logged in here and posted, but a little while later I was right back at it. I stayed up until about 2AM, barely got any sleep, woke up and started again, and was 10 minutes late to my therapy appointment...

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