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Hello everyone... Not accessing porn. Not counting days but it's been fine for a long time. But I'm addicted to the same thing nontheless. AI companions... (that don't do outright porn imagery but do in fact provide any storyline you want and generate very revealing pictures... Damn. I...

You've come a long way brother. Respect!

I'm noticing that after PMO, or even just PM, I actually hope my wife won't try to be too affectionate, and I avoid situations that might lead to intimacy. That's just crazy. I'm turned off from her and the only thing I can think about is the next online session. It's a bigger dopamine hit... I...

I'm still alive. But haven't really beat my demons. I've just shifted the avenue I take to get my fix. I don't want to be specific because I don't need to give anyone ideas by accident. I can say that I'm not accessing porn online in quite a while, but it doesn't mean I'm clean unfortunately...

I've just figured out why I have carpal tunnel in my left thumb and wrist... I won't spell it out - but repetitive motions over the course of 30 years will do it. It's been bothering me ever since my boy wants to go mountain biking all the time. I'm very proud of my physical well-being and...

The sirens are calling. Tie me to a mast or I will jump in and drown. Day 41.

Wow. Almost 500 days. That's amazing!!

Rereading this post today. I need to. Because I'm starting to forget and just visited the wrong site for a few minutes. Day 38

This is the stage when I start to forget how terrible I feel after giving in. What I do remember very well though is the euphoria before that. So my mind is weaker to the little voice telling me I should just give in. I don't need to beat this. I can have a bit of it. Anyway. Just reread the...

A situation at work yesterday got me super turned on. I didn't pull back from it as I could have when it was going on but sort of just let it continue. Today I'm having a hard time concentrating. Having the memories float back. I MO'd to them this morning too. Wasn't too great. The problem with...

I had a good weekend. Now that I'm in the office again in front of the computer I'm feeling withdrawal symptoms in the space where I had some big failures before. No worries. I won't go there. But my mind is telling me it would be a nice way to spend time and avoid facing my work, the stresses...

There's like 40 guys here waiting with baited breath for that post telling us you've scored. The roar will be deafening! You deserve it man.

Keep pushing through it!

Today I'm feeling triggered. Nothing happened in particular, so I think it's just the old channels in my brain feeling dry and wanting to be "watered" with porn. Can't give in. Even though the voice is telling me right now "how nice" it would be. Day 25

I have tried that, and I should get back to it. Thank you for the reminder. It definitely helps.

Today I feel super sexually charged. Not sure why, other than that I'm almost a month away from my last relapse... I've also taken some looks at girls and women that didn't accomplish anything other than getting me amped up. I always tell myself that I don't need to stop enjoying the beauty of...

Congratulations!! You are a different man today and I feel in your posts that you are not really in danger of every relapsing to who you were. Not to say you should let your guard down, but you have fundamentally become a different person than you were. That's huge.

How ya doing?

The week has just blown by. It's Friday. I'm clean. I'm not giving porn a chance by not entertaining any ideas of giving in. I am thankful for my precious clean streak, because the withdrawal is much much less severe than last year. I can do this. We can all do this. Stay strong everyone! Day 19.

Day 15. Feeling pretty decent.