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This is a new journal.  I did really well for a long time but after a long break up and now social isolation in a new place living alone with no friends here, I slipped back into old habits.  It has been one week since I used and do not feel the urge to use. I would like to make a network of...

Hello All, Here are two talks that I came across when looking into addiction and how it and addicts are perceived. The first Ted Talk 'Everything you think you know about addiction is wrong. Johanh Hari.' is all about general ways to understand why people are addicted. See below for one of the...

Hi All, I have been clean for a while now. I find myself planning though which as we all know precedes acting out. They are long term plans and the one I have had brewing so far is now about one month away. It is strange because I am putting this plan ahead of other things which could be better...

Would anyone like to start a Skype group (no video).  It would circumvent the need to attend a group. I guess I do not need to say more as it is quite clear. Thanks

HELP!!!!! I need to talk!!!

Hello All, May I ask your advice? I wondered if anyone had experience of their partners being extremely argumentative but just constantly going over the same stuff. I seem to get stuck going round in circles not being able to let go of stuff, which means I cannot rest or sleep if I do not...

I am starting this as a new journal and welcome any help and advice along the way.

Hello All After not using porn for many months, cutting out caffeine completely, not using social media as much, I finally decided to masturbate. I only used my imagination and not porn or porn thought. It has been about a year since I last masturbated. The dopamine rush of fog afterwards just...

This is just a post to get someone to reply and say it is normal! I hate having an argument with my partner and then in my head the first thing that pops into my head is look at porn and wank.  I am not going to, it is just a nightmare that that is what pops into my head still. Cheers

Hi, Just hit the five month mark. It all seems to be going fine (despite different symptoms) but the weird anger thing that builds with brooding and then bursts out for two minutes, words are exchanged and I might end up being kicked out. I am not physically aggressive toward anyone but it it...

Hi All, 109 Days in and going barmy!  It is like my memory is disappearing?  Things are very stressful here which does not help, I am now on shift work and it does not stimulate my mind at all.  I cannot focus and it is like a downward spiral which is getting worse.... so I am feeling more and...

Hello - This documentary is interesting.  It is on the BBC and it is about the young adults/teenagers and what it means to grow up in a generation using so much porn.  For me there was nothing that triggered my because it fed into a lot of good thoughts about how porn gives negative perceptions...

74 Days!!!! HA! But the challenges remain. Thanks Tiramasu for being so positive.  Meditation really helps. Aside from that self acceptance for me is the key.  Best way to avoid temptation is to avoid surfing for crap on the net and having a focus to internet use.  Keep at it! Almost three months!

It is not really a fog, but is uncontrollable.  I do not explode but am just unhappy and off kilter..  I still consider my partner in all things and act according to her needs but she still wants to know why I am quietly angry and I cannot say why.  It passes within minutes but by that time she...

Is it possible that I am switching from Porn to internet browsing for articles about porn addiction among other things? My brain seems foggy which might be a 59 day thing but at the same time I am amazed how much time I seem to be wasting surfing stuff.  My attention span is certainly...

My moods are variable.  I suddenly got very anxious that I would only get a few hours sleep before a long day at work tomorrow.  When I get home it is important that I study and the prospect of using the few hours I do have to study feeling very tired is not a good feeling. It was like a switch...

HI All, There is a lot of talk about the different triggers on here but as a male and knowing males do not talk about feelings much (although this website is exceptional) - I wondered if people thought it relevant to start from the beginning to identify triggers or underlying causes that may...

What help can I provide myself to fight the doubts, insecurities and fears that keep appearing that I used to be able to hide from with the dopamine but now live in fear the rug will be pulled away from me at anytime.  Simple things seem to blow out of proportion and instead of being able to...

Good evening, I am 39, am not doing so bad with the working on the issues that lead me to porn and would like consistent communication with an Accountability Partner. At present I have my slips down to about once a month and can even stop myself mid way and get through the night. It would...

Hi All, Wrote a long post earlier and it said it had sent but disappeared. Does it take time for them to go up or should I back up before I send? Cheers