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25th June 2025 Back here again. Relapsed yesterday on day 9. But getting to day 9 felt like a good achievement - it's the best I've managed this year. Today has been a stressful day with work and dealing with difficult people. I'll try not to let my low mood lead to relapse.

23rd April 2025 Day zero again. Relapsed this morning. Will try to change my blocker password to something I won't be able to remember.

19th April 2025 Day zero. Relapsed this morning. No blocker removes 100% of explicit material so I will need to keep using willpower as well. I think what I need to figure out is how to put my phone down when an urge comes, rather than just telling myself I will not look at porn websites.

16th April 2025 Back on day 2 again. Managed to find a way to block adult websites on my phone. Not completely, as I could remove the blocker if I tried. But it just gives me some breathing room, when I get tempted, to know I would have to go through that extra effort to relapse.

I know what you mean about the anxiety urges. It's good for us to remember that ultimately addictive behaviour is contributing to our anxiety, not soothing it.

14th April 2025 Relapsed again. You were right @Will Stalwart, I need to keep my phone away from me more.

13th April 2025 Day 1 again. Relapsed yesterday. Came close to relapse this morning but decided against it. Will not take my phone to bed with me tonight.

Back on the wagon, you can do this. 5 days was a nice little streak but I reckon you can beat it next time!

9th April 2025 Day 2. Managed to avoid relapse yesterday despite temptation. Didn't take my phone to bed with me. Not in the best of moods today after a stressful day at work so will try to keep my phone away later this evening so I avoid temptation again.

7th April 2025 Unfortunately I relapsed again this evening. Was going fine all day and not really thinking much about porn, but then I started to get an unpleasant headache this evening and wanted comfort - straight away my mind went to porn and I caved in. Gonna put it behind me, sleep on it...

6th April 2025 Back here again after just over a year away. Basically I've been in a rut for the last year or so, sliding back into regular porn viewing. I've realised I need to start addressing this a bit more, so I can get back on track and improve my life again. I've not been accountable...

25th March 2024 Day 1

Not taking my phone to bed is a big one. Also not undoing the block function on my phone. I have social media blocked and sometimes remove the blocker to look at posts on social media about a subject I’m interested in. But I then get tempted to search for NSFW material on social media - if I...

24th March 2024 Day 2

22nd March 2024 Yeah, I relapsed again last night. The same thing happened I was talking about - when relapsing after a long streak I lose motivation and relapse some more.

20th March 2024 Relapsed for the first time in March. Just need to avoid binging now. Often when I relapse I feel hopeless and relapse more times in the following days. I must try to see this as the start of another good clean spell.

17th March 2024 Hitting 3 weeks without porn. This is the longest I’ve managed since 2022, but I’m not trying to get too hung up on obsessing about days or streaks. I just want to continue to try and get used to living this way. I am feeling more calm lately and waking up without the...

This sounds a lot like the experience I’m having right now, about 3 weeks in. I’m generally feeling more calm, which is a double-edged sword. I’m dealing better with situations that are usually anxiety-inducing for me but sometimes I feel quite flat emotionally. I’m also finding that some days...

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