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  1. Chuckles

    Miles to Go

    Day 133 First MO in a while (maybe like 3 weeks, haven't been keeping track). Still no PMO, still busy AF
  2. Chuckles

    Miles to Go

    Day 129 Sorry I've been absent. I still have a ton of stuff going on. Still no PMO, and it's like 3 or 4 weeks of no MO at this point. I probably should have journaled my last MO, but didn't realize it would be my last one for a while. The kink thing has been going well. I've met some great...
  3. Chuckles

    im 35...im in the last few minutes of the game and want to give it my last shot!

    I flatlined too. All the times I tried to quit before I got on RN, and this time too. It happens. You'll get through it. You got this!
  4. Chuckles

    Striving to be better (journal)

    I had an incident similar to this a little while back. I searched, saw the search results, and immediately closed the browser. I didn't count it as a day reset, but also, you definitely need to do some soul searching, and recommit to quitting.
  5. Chuckles

    A little support because I want to become Better

    In my opinion, relapses are a mixed bag. You messed up, you have to reset your counter, it's not a good thing to relapse, and you need to recognize that. But it also reminds you that you're human, and that we all mess up sometimes. Don't beat yourself up too bad. I'm glad you're back on track to...
  6. Chuckles

    Striving to be better (journal)

    I got checked last year. I have lumps, but they did an ultrasound and said they're not cancerous. It was really scary between my urologist telling me that I had lumps on my balls and a swollen prostate, and getting the results. See a doctor, that's the only way you'll know for sure.
  7. Chuckles

    Striving to be better (journal)

    Yeah the first few weeks really got into my head too. Insomnia, flatlines, crazy horny times, balls hurting for no reason. Keep at it, you'll feel better before you know it. Stay occupied, stay on target!
  8. Chuckles

    Miles to Go

    Day 120 Day 1 was Feb 10th. Tomorrow will be 4 months! My friends will be going out to dinner together for a different thing, but I'm going to call that my secret celebration as well. Thanks @Escapeandnevercomeback and @particularly_respecting. I don't think the becoming unraveled will lead to...
  9. Chuckles

    Miles to Go

    The good news is I'm so busy I don't have the MF time to PMO. The bad news is I'm tired and maybe going to come a little unraveled.
  10. Chuckles

    I need to up my game.

    Damn dude. I can relate to so much of this. I felt the same way at 30, and again at 34. Broke, unemployed, single, and with no prospects. A family member gave me a job. One celebrity that motivated me was Terry Crews. IDK if you've seen his youtube series, but he overcame porn addiction too...
  11. Chuckles

    I need to up my game.

    Very well put. Escape, it sucks what you're going through. I can't say I've been in the exact same position, but I do know what it's like to be overwhelmed. With 1,000 things weighing me down, no way out in sight, and that feeling of "anything to not feel like this for just a little bit." But...
  12. Chuckles

    Miles to Go

    Day 117 I wish I was more consistent with my posts and tracking. But I've seriously got a lot going on these days. I'm trying to strike a balance between productivity, fun, and rest. It's tough, but easier than it would have been 4 months ago. I know I would have burnt out and just PMO'd like a...
  13. Chuckles

    I need to up my game.

    When I was in it... at first, I was lonely, and didn't want to put the effort into getting laid. Also, I thought it would eventually make me last longer in bed. But that led to edging, then gooning, then I did it on autopilot, to escape the stresses of life. It's a hell of a drug.
  14. Chuckles

    Striving to be better (journal)

    My advice, take it or leave it: Get a good, concrete plan going. I'm happy/proud of you for your progress so far. With this current clarity, really stop and ask yourself what the struggles are going to be, and how you're going to overcome them. Write it down! Don't just hold the idea in your...
  15. Chuckles

    A little support because I want to become Better

    If I was being intimate with someone, and she started to have an asthma attack, I'd ask what I could do to help. And if she was ready to get back to it I'd get back to it. If not we'd take a break/stop. If it happened every time it's something we would have to find a way to work around it. I...
  16. Chuckles

    Striving to be better (journal)

    Good luck breaking this! All of us older folks will say the same thing: it's so good to break this young! You're giving yourself the gift of porn-free 20's
  17. Chuckles

    I need to up my game.

    I get it. Not mad. My main point is asking you to really look at your quitting plan. Have you considered detox/rehab for the alcohol? Not telling you how to live, just a suggestion. Good luck on recovery!
  18. Chuckles

    Miles to Go

    Yeah, Since I'm new to all this, there is a lot of calendar searching, to see what's out there. But then the guests lists, and people you have to message all have profile pics, and whatnot. So as far as I can, I'm not going looking for it, but also trying to meet new people. To a purist it may...
  19. Chuckles

    Miles to Go

    Thanks for the insight. I didn't lose my virginity until 18, which I feel is a somewhat normal age, but realized later down the line that I had opportunities much earlier than that. So being oblivious, combined with not knowing how to navigate all that, hindered me. Plus there's a whole lot of...
  20. Chuckles

    Miles to Go

    Day 109 I've been incredibly busy these past few days. Which is great. I went into this weekend afraid of all the triggers and desires and whatnot, and honestly, they haven't been an issue. I MO'd maybe a couple more times than I wanted to, but I think I'm getting that under control too. , and...
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