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  1. Notthatmananymore17

    Been a while since i last wrote here, college has been pretty demanding this last two weeks...

    Been a while since i last wrote here, college has been pretty demanding this last two weeks. Today is day 1, yesterday i had to stay in a hotel cause i was to tired to drive back home. The last guests that had been there left the TV on the porn channel so the rest is history. I won't turn on the...
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    After 2 years of trying.

    Know what it feels bro. The important thing here is to keep trying harder every time and never giving up. Be compassive with yourself and take every relapse as an opportunity to know what triggers you. I've found out that even the tiniest of the things can get you triggered. As part of my...
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    Screwed this week streak. It was so stressfull. This semester college is demanding a lot. I have...

    Screwed this week streak. It was so stressfull. This semester college is demanding a lot. I have to find healthy ways to purge all of the stress. It has been a tough week. So starting again today more carefully and paying more attention to negative feelings. Those are being quick triggers for...
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    Day 0 (continuation). I can't stand this. I haven't had this kind of relapses y usually go 3+...

    Day 0 (continuation). I can't stand this. I haven't had this kind of relapses y usually go 3+ days until a relapse, but this is getting me terrified. If anybody has gone with this issue and has some advices please write a comment i would like to read. Thank you!
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    Day 0. This week has been one of the strangest ones. I have relapsed every single day since...

    Day 0. This week has been one of the strangest ones. I have relapsed every single day since sunday even though all my devices have blockers and my network has a porn filter. This week i had managed somehow to get my way into porn: (trying combinations in the net, looking for...
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    Day 5. Last sunday i got a really weak moment and i relapsed. Talked about it with mi AP. She...

    Day 5. Last sunday i got a really weak moment and i relapsed. Talked about it with mi AP. She wanted me to write every day of how i'm feeling and specially those days were i have the urges. Every 7 days i'll have to send those and we'll discuss about it. This month hasn't been what i expected...
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    Day 7 (continuation). Today i'm feeling the urges, but i'm confident to get over them by taking...

    Day 7 (continuation). Today i'm feeling the urges, but i'm confident to get over them by taking proper action. Today i haven't done my morning routine since last night i arrive home late so i just wanted to sleep. I understand how important is this to stay into the challenge. New week is coming...
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    Day 7. I've realised how important is to have a morning routine out of social media. Since...

    Day 7. I've realised how important is to have a morning routine out of social media. Since monday i've started to excersise (10x4 push ups, 10x4 V abs, 30x4 squats), talking a cold shower while listening to a psychology podcast and then having a guided meditation session for 10 minutes. The...
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    Day 2. I've traveled for like a month in wich i reached 33 days sober. However i got distracted...

    Day 2. I've traveled for like a month in wich i reached 33 days sober. However i got distracted and too confident about myself control and ended in relapsing various times. I've arrived home for a fresh start and beat that 33 day mark. I've talked with my AP to desing and test new strategies to...
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    Day 26. Today i had wet dreams. Felt really tired in the morning, but that improved through the...

    Day 26. Today i had wet dreams. Felt really tired in the morning, but that improved through the day. Tomorrow is the final test of one of my assingnments and thus the end of this semester. A lot to review in this month of vacation, but i'm proud i got myself here. Flatlining wasn't that hard and...
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    Day 24. I've been feeling quite horny lately, appart from it i feel less mentaly disturbed...

    Day 24. I've been feeling quite horny lately, appart from it i feel less mentaly disturbed, energized and confident. I'm on final tests this week and i feel really tired, can't wait for vacations. Wish the best to all of you this week!
  12. Notthatmananymore17

    Rediscovering myself

    Been about 21 days since my last relapse. I'm feeling really good about me cause social anxiety is going slowly. Today i reunited with some college friends and felt completely different when talking. The ideas that i had were so fluent and i've managed to talk them with such passion that one of...
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    Day 21 guys! Can't believe i made it here. This week was very hard cause i've got tempted a...

    Day 21 guys! Can't believe i made it here. This week was very hard cause i've got tempted a couple of times very hardly, however i managed to analize the source of the cravings and worked them out in a healthy way. Feeling comfortable with me, social anxiety is breaking out slowly. I feel more...
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    Day 17. Cravings are big today. I think they have been pushed by the stress of final tests so...

    Day 17. Cravings are big today. I think they have been pushed by the stress of final tests so i'm looking for ways to manage them. I'm focused on the 30days+ so have to be careful around here. Energy is at the top and concentration has improved through the last week. I'm finding hard to sleep...
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    Day 15. 2 weeks free!!! It has been quite tricky with the lows and downs. Yesterday cravings...

    Day 15. 2 weeks free!!! It has been quite tricky with the lows and downs. Yesterday cravings were quite strong, but i choosed to stay focused and commited to my goal and reviewing the improvements that quiting porn offers. Final tests had arrived so i'm on my way to vacations! I Wish success to...
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    Day 12. Checkpoint reached. I'm studying hard for final tests, but in a regime that allows me to...

    Day 12. Checkpoint reached. I'm studying hard for final tests, but in a regime that allows me to relax in order to decrease stress and anxiety. Today i will play soccer with some friends that haven't seen since the pandemic so i'm happy for that. Feeling energized and happy. Day 14th i'm coming...
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    Day 10. Feeling small cravings. Last time i got myself to this day cravings started to build up...

    Day 10. Feeling small cravings. Last time i got myself to this day cravings started to build up so I'm more aware of that in order to take inmediate action if they go sky high. On the other hand i feel quite energized although with low needs to socialize and low on motivation... guess it's part...
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    Day 8. Last week felt like shit. I'm really stressed by college. Feel so lonely and absolutely...

    Day 8. Last week felt like shit. I'm really stressed by college. Feel so lonely and absolutely unmotivated. However i'm commited to get day 14+ Have to tell myself that this is temporal so i can get through.
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    Day 5. No presentation of urges, maybe because it is a very busy week and i'm thinking about how...

    Day 5. No presentation of urges, maybe because it is a very busy week and i'm thinking about how to deal with my college activities. 2 weeks for final exams. Let's keep this up!
  20. Notthatmananymore17

    You can do it bro! This will only beat us if we decide to give up.

    You can do it bro! This will only beat us if we decide to give up.
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