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  1. Qwertyxyz

    Time to tackle the MO problem

    Two days completely PMO free ✅ It feels good, but today was a test. I felt very itchy to act out but I was working so i got distracted and it passed. I don’t like the intrusive thoughts but I know that the longer I stick at it the easier it will be. I can do this, and thanks to everyone for...
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    Crawling from the wreckage

    I relate to a lot of this, thanks for sharing and good luck. internet porn is something else and it has taken so much of my time and confidence. Have a good reboot ✅
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    Time to tackle the MO problem

    Thanks, walking helps me too. I’m better when I’m productive and posting here helps too 👍
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    Time to tackle the MO problem

    When I discovered internet porn I really went down a rabbit hole and got hooked. I don’t like what it did to me at all and it took a while to see how bad it has affected me. After many false starts I am now 84 days clean of porn and feel great about it 👍 however I have still been doing MO most...
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    Trying again

    Sorry, I sent that last message early by mistake. I realise I need support from others if I am to get free but I have been such an island in my life, I don’t share my inner self with people and I don’t let people in. I am in such a habit of not talking to people and I know it’s really bad for...
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    Trying again

    I am 31 days free from porn, but am on my first day of no MO. From past experience MO will lead back to porn and I can feel I really need to stop now or slip back. Quitting PMO is harder than I expected and I understand it is not something that can be done by self will
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    My Recovery Journal

    10 days without PMO 🙂 There have been challenges but I’m feeling so much better. I’m trying to face my buried emotions, they really trip me up, in a wiser better place than before.
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    My Recovery Journal

    Day 9 PMO free. It’s been good I feel I need to be very vigilant right now. There is an itch wanting to be scratched and I have to stay strong, remember the lost of confidence and shame of using porn. And I need to celebrate 🎉 how good it is to be feel confident, happy and stable 👍
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    My Recovery Journal

    4 days PMO free and feeling very good about it. I’ve weeks or a month up in the past and it has been great, I’m more confident and more productive so I’m really trying to think of that and how much of a better life it is for me. I have been looking at myself emotionally as well, I crave porn...
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    My Recovery Journal

    Really keen to get off PMO, I’m going to look at a bunch of videos and try to get an accountability partner. Porn costs me so much confidence and happiness 😢
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    My Recovery Journal

    I’m preparing to try again, I don’t feel as if I’ve let go into the addiction as much this time but I just really want my life back. I need to prep for my next attempt.
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    My Recovery Journal

    Had a relapse. It was hard to not act out. What I learned is that I have so much I need to talk about and accept or let go of. There is pain inside and when I pretend that I don’t need to address it it kind of stays stuck. I know that will power is finite and things need to be structurally sound...
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    My Recovery Journal

    Day 10 PMO free, Glad to get through yesterday ✅ this morning is less intense but I don’t feel too close to flatlining. Porn is so bad for me, I would often wake up and plan things for after I do my PMO, those things were done poorly or not at all. Porn affected every aspect of my life...
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    My Recovery Journal

    Far out, I usually aim to just post in the morning but today has been really bad for craving, like it would have been the most natural and comforting thing would to just act out. I stayed active though, and then some sort of penny dropped; I had listened to a podcast on ‘consider before...
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    My Recovery Journal

    Thanks for the support and advice. Activity and goals are good for distraction.
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    My Recovery Journal

    Day 9 PMO free 👍 The mornings are the worst for craving. If I can see it out I’m really good. Sometimes I set a micro target of getting past 1200, the morning was my worst time. Sometimes I would wake up start on the porn, and that was pretty much my day. I can be so much more constructive and...
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    My Recovery Journal

    Day 8 PMO free, I like how I’m feeling and it does feel like I’m changing a bit. My relationship with woman is changing in a nice way. I worry about relapse, in the past I don’t think I had enough distraction options, and stressful time would cause a relapse. How do accountability partners...
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    My one week goal

    8 days up, Feeling good about it but get cravings. I worry about stressful times, they have affected me in the past.
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    My Recovery Journal

    Day 7 PMO free 🎉 I’ve decided to make a thing about celebrating each week that I’m free. Every Saturday morning is a wonderful victory. I can do this, already I feel different around women and it’s really nice. PMO made me so ashamed and cagey, I didn’t like the social stress it caused me. I...
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    My Recovery Journal

    Thanks for the words of wisdom. It feels slightly less potent today which is good. I do affirmations every day to remind myself what is at stake.
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