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  1. Chris1986

    I need to do this. (Relapse. Starting again)

    30 days 17 hours. Well the tail end of last week was killer at work. Thursday we did a 10 hour Plus day where me and my buddy were feeling shattered. Next morning I woke up drained and feeling pretty unwell. Noticed I had a miss call from my buddy. I phoned him back . He said he felt too ill...
  2. Chris1986

    Rebooting trough self-parenting

    Started any of these classes yet?
  3. Chris1986

    Overcoming the addiction

    Hey man welcome to the forums and congratulations to taking step towards a healthier, happier porn free you. Create a journal on here and let us know how you are doing. Good and bad. Know you are not alone. I would advise to definitely give therapy your all. You get out what you put in...
  4. Chris1986

    Porn Addict or Sex Addict?

    I originally posted this more out of curiosity to how many people really felt like they only had a problem with P. I certainly had that way of thinking years ago but I lied to myself so much I couldn't accept the other ways it had affected my life and filled me with so much cognitive dissonance...
  5. Chris1986

    I need to do this. (Relapse. Starting again)

    24 days and 1 hour Still going strong. I went to work today after having the last 3 weeks off. Helping an old work friend of mine fit a kitchen. He is aware of my struggle with addiction/mental health so he is very supportive. I was strange getting up early again but the day went quite quick...
  6. Chris1986

    Rebooting trough self-parenting

    Yeah finding the right balance is important and its good to find time to truly connect to people but also give ourselves time to be mindful by ourselves and recharge. The world is a hectic place. Me and my partner bought new dinner bowls the other day. Younger me would be judging current me for...
  7. Chris1986

    Escape and never come back

    Sorry to hear how you are feeling about you self. Have you considered SAA? Maybe having a group of allies that you can phone when you feel the urge to use could be useful? Have you considered trying to express these dark feelings in poetry or song? Might be a good way to help process these...
  8. Chris1986

    Crossing the river

    That was a very brave post my man. This part about hypnosis I can identify with. The way I went was sissy hypno and I think it was to try and break myself in a way. Like "you ARE going to act out in this way...stop being a pussy. watch these to make it an easier thing to do!" Not sure if you...
  9. Chris1986

    Rebooting trough self-parenting

    How you keeping @EarthWalker ?
  10. Chris1986

    I need to do this. (Relapse. Starting again)

    17 days 16 hours. Had a bit of a wet nightmare (not a dream as it wasn't my true hearts desire) last night. I know this is part of the healing process but I really hate the lack of control. Followed a mindful mediation before getting out of bed today. Not been my favourite one I tried but live...
  11. Chris1986

    I need to do this. (Relapse. Starting again)

    16 days 22 hours Still staying strong though noticing the recovery process feels different than the last time. Definitely not as manic as last time but more times of feeling sad or a just a bit numb. The work situation isn't helping and we ended up making the decision to let one of our rats...
  12. Chris1986

    Escape and never come back

    How are you keeping @Escapeandnevercomeback?
  13. Chris1986

    I admit - I am addicted

    If we keep treating it like a shameful secret how are we suppose to not live in shame? I found it helpful having people close to me aware of my issues.
  14. Chris1986

    I admit - I am addicted

    Hey sorry not really been on here for a few days but phone keeps me signed in so why appears I am online. My tools didn't let me down but me not using them is what let me down. We were house hunting/then doing all the process of buying a house and I let my self care slip. I started just laying...
  15. Chris1986

    Escape and never come back

    You are not alone. You can get through this. Keep fighting.
  16. Chris1986

    Crossing the river

    Keep on trucking! *breaks out into a American country pop ballad about trucking*
  17. Chris1986

    I admit - I am addicted

    Welcome to the forum and the start of building a happier, healthier porn free version of you. Will it be easy? No but as long as you put in the work into recovery it is possible. I relapsed after nearly 600 days due to letting my recovery tools fall behind. That might be a bit scary to read...
  18. Chris1986

    Escape Velocity - Orbiters Journal

    Keep up the good work. Rooting for you.
  19. Chris1986

    Escape and never come back

    Sorry to hear how its going for you man. Have you thought about speaking to a doctor or therapist about this??
  20. Chris1986

    I need to do this. (Relapse. Starting again)

    11 Days and 22 hours. Feeling pretty relaxed now. Just done a couple of guided mindfulness mediations. One on fortify about guiding the heart and the other from the daily calm on youtube about just being present. I was feeling pretty tired and worn out beforehand. Been some jobs round the...
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