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  1. jonazo91

    I know I can do it. I can feel myself getting closer to success.

    I missed my posting last night because I was busy relapsing. I had 2 PMOs yesterday, one soon after I woke up, and again late at night, that turned out to be an extended binge. Why? That's the big question. It wasn't a particularly stressful day. I just can't seem to get a rhythm going. Last...
  2. jonazo91

    I know I can do it. I can feel myself getting closer to success.

    Did okay today, was able to relax a bit and watch TV while still also getting some things done and getting my exercise in. No strong urges and in fact I did my best to stay off my phone in general as much as possible. Just wish I could stick to that as well every day. PMO last week (starting...
  3. jonazo91

    I know I can do it. I can feel myself getting closer to success.

    Last night I got too tired to post her before bed but it was overall a pretty good day. Spent some time with extended family and then came home and relaxed. Too busy for any porn urges to creep in. PMO last week (starting Sunday): 1 PMO this week (starting Sunday): 0 Current streak: 1 day
  4. jonazo91

    I know I can do it. I can feel myself getting closer to success.

    So I just had a, whatever you want to call it.. A half-relapse. These aren't necessarily rare for me but I do try to learn from them each time so I want to journal it while it's fresh in my mind. It was during another bored/unmotivated period at work, and I found myself looking up porn on my...
  5. jonazo91

    I know I can do it. I can feel myself getting closer to success.

    I stayed up too late tonight and I didn't exercise today, was a little lazier and more indulgent (especially with eating) than I ought to have been. But no porn. Still trying to keep tabs on all the little things though, because it's always the whole package that matters. PMO last week...
  6. jonazo91

    I know I can do it. I can feel myself getting closer to success.

    Today was fine, I didn't have zero urges or bad behaviors, but I didn't get into too much trouble. My fiancee went to bed early so I stayed up got high and watched TV for a little while. This is definitely the of kind of situation where I often end up viewing porn, but I feel motivated right now...
  7. jonazo91

    Newcomer here: Publicly committing to Rebooting

    Hey man, welcome and good luck on your journey! This is a great group of folks on here with lots of wisdom to share. Hope to see you around and defeating this thing!
  8. jonazo91

    I know I can do it. I can feel myself getting closer to success.

    Today was fine, I barely had any urges. I guess I kept fairly busy and occupied. I don't know exactly what was different. The good days are just as puzzling in their own way. But I'm grateful to God for them. PMO last week (starting Sunday): 4 PMO this week (starting Sunday): 1 Current streak...
  9. jonazo91

    I know I can do it. I can feel myself getting closer to success.

    PMO tonight. These urges seem to have been coming a lot near the end of my work shift lately for some reason, and I can imagine the annoyance of the day builds up and makes me want an out. But really my work isn't all that stressful. It's just boring and hard for me to stay motivated at. None of...
  10. jonazo91

    I know I can do it. I can feel myself getting closer to success.

    Quick post today before bed. Not a perfectly clean day but no PMO. PMO last week (starting Sunday): 4 PMO this week (starting Sunday): 0 Current streak: 3 days
  11. jonazo91

    I know I can do it. I can feel myself getting closer to success.

    Had a decent day today, mostly relaxed and helped my fiancee with some chores around the house. Exercised. I had some random urges hit me, once while I was already in bed to sleep last night, and again today while in the shower. They weren't too long lived though, and I was able to kind of...
  12. jonazo91

    I know I can do it. I can feel myself getting closer to success.

    I just don't know if I'm ready for that. I know it's helped a lot of people but I still want to believe I have all the tools I need without spending money to help myself quit. Maybe that's delusional I don't know. I'll promise I'll keep an open mind to it.
  13. jonazo91

    I know I can do it. I can feel myself getting closer to success.

    Finally got through a day without porn, even though I still look at questionable material briefly. I stopped myself and moved on, I'm taking the w. I feel motivated to get back on the horse. PMO last week (starting Sunday): 1 PMO this week (starting Sunday): 4 Current streak: 1 day
  14. jonazo91

    I know I can do it. I can feel myself getting closer to success.

    Another day another PMO. Certified rut city over here right now. I don't have anything new to add. It's gotta stop. I'm tired of the cycle, gotta make something new happen in my life. I'm trying to at least stick to routines as well as I can and let myself focus on working on myself. But the...
  15. jonazo91

    I know I can do it. I can feel myself getting closer to success.

    Hi. I used again today and I used yesterday too, and also didn't post last night. I also didn't exercise yesterday and I stayed up till 4 AM. Today, I used, but I did exercise and am going to try and be in bed by 1:30, which I understand still sounds late, but if I were able to consistently go...
  16. jonazo91

    I know I can do it. I can feel myself getting closer to success.

    I posted earlier but I'm deciding I ought to stick to adding a short journal entry before bed each night as a sort of ritual. Straying from that routine lately doesn't seem to have served me well. As I said earlier, I used porn again today and broke my streak. I did still exercise and read today...
  17. jonazo91

    I know I can do it. I can feel myself getting closer to success.

    Another relapse today. Or should I not call it a relapse? Anyway we all know what I'm talking about. A slip up, a falling back. I want to just move on from it. But I also clearly need a change of approach. I had a decent week last week, but I can sense myself easily sliding back if I'm not...
  18. jonazo91

    I know I can do it. I can feel myself getting closer to success.

    Hi just checking in quickly tonight. Had a decent day today with no strong urges. Trying to keep my slip ups isolated and the exception rather than the rule. PMO last week (starting Sunday): 1 PMO this week (starting Sunday): 0 Current streak: 1 day
  19. jonazo91

    I know I can do it. I can feel myself getting closer to success.

    I relapsed tonight after a really strong day where I was productive and got a lot of good things done. Bad way to end the night. I'll write more tomorrow, I absolutely need to go to bed. PMO last week (starting Sunday): 5 PMO this week (starting Sunday): 1 Porn, no MO this week (starting...
  20. jonazo91

    I know I can do it. I can feel myself getting closer to success.

    Posting here because I really don't feel like posting here so I think that means I better. Had a really nice night with the fiancee, she's in bed now while I stayed up for a while. I'm gonna head to bed now and stay out of trouble (and try to not fuck Up my sleep schedule). PMO last week...
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