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    The Good, the Bad and the Ugly

    Yesterday motivation was down but I eventually dragged my ass to the beach and ran a 5k. By the end of the run, which was really a jog 🤣 I was pumped, and ready to take on the world (this is the high I get from running.) I used one of the boulders (coastal erosion protection, 3ft diameter) to...
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    The Good, the Bad and the Ugly

    "You're my, baby you're my favorite waste of time" Owen Paul I loved this song as a kid 🙂 just like porn was a favorite waste of time, so is unrequited love. I've been to both sides, neither have made me happy.
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    I do struggle at times with fleeting porn thoughts. I wonder if "my favourite actresses" have any new scenes and am I missing out on something awesome. I dont even want to think of their names to be honest. What's different for me was being with a real woman, and I do wonder how she feels now...
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    The Good, the Bad and the Ugly

    I thought giving up porn would be the greatest challenge of my life.....turns out its not. I have now been porn free 4 months, with no masturbation. I wasn't going to say this but I will. I was with a woman last night and I had tbh a great orgasm. It was so different to pmo. I'll elaborate a...
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    The Good, the Bad and the Ugly

    I went for dinner with friends tonight, I went home after the meal, while they went on to a bar. I have a run early in the morning but tbh I don't want to upset the apple cart, I feel good and its a sacrifice I make because I know drunk or hungover I am more vulnerable to porn. But I will tell...
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    The Good, the Bad and the Ugly

    I dont struggle with my mental health so much lately, I have ups and downs but i'd consider that kinda normal. I'll be honest, I've always tried to be honest here. I'm kinda horny lately, I think that's normal too. It has to be. I met my friend and we hugged. I wont lie, I felt her arse a few...
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    The Good, the Bad and the Ugly

    The last few days I have felt amazing. Rebooting is the key to a better you, a true you, and the opportunity for a better life. I normally don't hope, but I do dream 😍
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    The Good, the Bad and the Ugly

    I feel good the last few days, and I also have had urges, but I think cravings and urges may be slightly different. Now i've had cravings too but that happens when i feel empty and my brain will search and look for dopamine. It's not pretty. This is when I have to walk away. The urges seem...
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    The Good, the Bad and the Ugly

    I'm a big Guns N Roses fan, infact I love the band. But sometimes when I think of where I am with porn, i will think of these lyrics from Paradise City - Captain America's been torn apart Now he's a court jester with a broken heart He said "turn me around and take me back to the start" In...
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    The Good, the Bad and the Ugly

    I can feel myself slowly coming back to life. I love feeling good 🤩
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    The Good, the Bad and the Ugly

    @Blondie
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    @Blondie
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    The Good, the Bad and the Ugly

    I will have look and see I can find it for you @Blondie My understanding is that some people never truely quit 100%.They still look at sexual stimulating images every so often and can never truely recover. I am an example. While I haven't watched porn in soooo long, there was a time when...
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    Thank you @Blondie 🙂
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    The Good, the Bad and the Ugly

    Here's the thing... I am a very different pereon off porn. Over the last week despite cravings, despite ups and downs, I have been reacquainted with an old friend, my personality. My basic understanding of rebooting from Trish leigh is this - Stage 1 - give up 90 days Stage 2 - Rewiring...
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    The Good, the Bad and the Ugly

    Another thing I have learned is that while it may not feel like those cravings and thoughts will pass, i now know they do and sometimes you have no choice but to just hold on. What I can see is that when I get a flashback of porn (there are not too many to be honest and they are weak) but when...
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    The Good, the Bad and the Ugly

    Today is one of those days. This emptiness feeling is horrible, and this constant craving is well making me uneasy. I had a meeting this morning, fixed my sisters tumble dryer (belt was ripped) in the afternoon, then drove to the beach and cleaned the inside of my car. I lifted weights...
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    @Beautiful1973 This is something I will have to work at.
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    I know these moments pass 😔 what do they say again? The last mile is the loneliest.
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    The Good, the Bad and the Ugly

    I dont know what I want really. Its coming up on 4 months rebooting but i know that I can still struggle at times and can feel vulnerable and with so much energy going in to staying clean I am tired. Do I want a partner? Or do I just want sex? Do I even want sex? Do I just miss porn? Do I just...
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