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  1. TryingHarder

    Crawling from the wreckage

    Day 324 (no PMO) Day 45 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes) The memories of favourite girls continue, as does the stupid urge to MO. It's like swatting at an invisible mosquito that keeps buzzing in your ear. Last time I did MO it was, at best, "not bad", so I know there's no reward for...
  2. TryingHarder

    My journey to be a better man.

    Whatever helps you stay away from porn, do it! (y)
  3. TryingHarder

    Holding the Fool (me) to Account

    You're not a fool, just someone struggling with an addiction. Like Blondie says, almost fucking up is not the same as fucking up. Do what you can to break up your routine, stay off the internet, mess up the trail of breadcrumbs that can lead you back to porn and escorts. Feel free to borrow my...
  4. TryingHarder

    Crawling from the wreckage

    Day 319 (no PMO) Day 40 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes) Certainly had some strong urges to MO over the past few days, accompanied by porn fantasies (memories of favourite girls). I have remembered my mantra: Forget them. Forget their faces. Forget their names. They're not real. You...
  5. TryingHarder

    I'm 24, and I'm scared

    Whenever you relapse, treat it as a chance to learn. What happened? What led you back to porn? What will you do differently next time? Remember: the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. 😜 Something that has worked for a lot of guys...
  6. TryingHarder

    Crawling from the wreckage

    Day 315 (no PMO) Day 36 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes) Not much to report. Same as last journal entry...
  7. TryingHarder

    Crawling from the wreckage

    Day 311 (no PMO) Day 32 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes) What else is new? Still fighting the urges to look at porn / porn substitutes and to MO. Saying no to all of them. Still in flatline, which I am still okay with as part of the healing process, but also eager to get over that hill...
  8. TryingHarder

    I'm 24, and I'm scared

    Yes, indeed. One day at a time. If you can do one day, you can do two. If you can do two days, you can do a week. Then two weeks. Then a month. I'm currently at almost 11 months no PMO. Do what you can to break up your usual routine. Go for walks. Get out with friends. Arrange your shirts in...
  9. TryingHarder

    Another story - probably the same as everyone else

    Congratulations on one year porn free, GBS! I'm looking forward to celebrating that important day myself next month.
  10. TryingHarder

    Porn is not an option

    We seem to be cut from the same cloth, Blondie! This could very well be a description of me.
  11. TryingHarder

    Porn is not an option

    I'm still waiting for that day to happen! At least I know that "horny" really means depressed or anxious about something.
  12. TryingHarder

    Crawling from the wreckage

    Day 306 (no PMO) Day 27 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes) "Leave your front door and your back door open. Allow your thoughts to come and go. Just don't invite them in for tea." – Shunryu Suzuki We are not our thoughts. This is an important truth for us to learn; it gives us choice in...
  13. TryingHarder

    Crawling from the wreckage

    Day 309 (no PMO) Day 30 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes) Although things have been mostly good, out of the blue I get the damn "siren calls" or unexpected sexy thoughts. I can largely ignore them, but they are still troublesome. Sometimes I get a sense of unease, like there's...
  14. TryingHarder

    Crawling from the wreckage

    Day 306 (no PMO) Day 27 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes) All quiet on the no porn front.
  15. TryingHarder

    Crawling from the wreckage

    Day 301 (no PMO) Day 21 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes) The "stupid voices" inside my head have largely been quiet, and yet every once in awhile, they raise their ugly heads and start yapping. Of course, I know that porn thoughts in the middle of the day are nothing but the addiction...
  16. TryingHarder

    Porn is not an option

    The new LP by Blondie & The Rebooters, in stores now! :LOL:
  17. TryingHarder

    Radical Twenty-Three Layers

    Relapses happen NickC, especially early in your recovery. Take the opportunity to figure out why you relapsed: what was happening? What were the triggers? What could you do differently next time? What obstacles can you put up between you and porn? I've done all of these things myself, and in...
  18. TryingHarder

    Proud mayor of Flatlineville, population: 1 🙃

    Proud mayor of Flatlineville, population: 1 🙃
  19. TryingHarder

    Crawling from the wreckage

    365 will be the real accomplishment. Looking forward to that important milestone.
  20. TryingHarder

    Crawling from the wreckage

    Day 299 (no PMO) Day 19 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes) Not much to report (again) which is good news (again).
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