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Day 30-33/60 I unfortunately found a loophole which included graphic erotica and caught myself masturbating. I contemplated orgasming but am proud to say I didn't. I'm feeling double about whether it counts as failure or not. To be sure and clear with myself about it from now on I'm counting it...

Day 27-30/30 This flu thing knocked the wind out of me. My only focus at the moment is eating and drinking sufficiently while trying not to bother myself to death when trying to sleep with cold-sweat fever. I noticed some pull towards looking up porn, mainly out of boredom because I was...

Day 26/30 I came down with the flu Wednesday night, and I have been bedridden since then. I feel wretched, which is a blessing in disguise for rebooting. All I care and think about is getting better. I'll be fine in a few days, which is coincidentally when I will have made it to 30 days. I plan...

Day 25/30 I had been busy this week as I let on last week. Between classes, hobbies, assignments and meetings I don't recall registering any urges.

I could go for a walk, i usually get down if it isn't really nice weather outside though. But thanks for the recommendations anyways :)

Day 24/30 The things my brain is trying to convince me of just to try and get me to PMO, it's insane! I'm doing okay staving off the urges. So far so good.

Thanks! I think there's a book called "why we sleep". I'm reading that next.

Day 23/30 Few urges today, only in the morning. I think it's partly because of how busy it was. I took a look at my schedule for next week and WOW it's packed. I think the last days are gonna be a breeze. I've reminded myself of activities I have ready but didn't need to use them today. I'm...

Day 22/30 I started taking my phone to bed in the morning and it's screwing me bad. The only good thing it manages to do is keep me awake long enough to avoid falling asleep instantly. I think that's indicative of another problem, the fact I wake up tired. I'm still putting my phone away, which...

Day 21/30 The struggle has resumed. Once I got back from vacation I felt the pull to return to old habits. I worked through the urges in the evening at night and the morning thereafter. I'm quite embarrassed at my poor impulse control because my thoughts would just wander right into the gutter...

Day 20/30 Saw some triggering material but honestly didn't feel any urges as I went away from it pretty quick in conscious response. I did have an urge conceived from boredom. I began to imagine sexual acts to kill time. I stopped after about a minute, and I didn't think of it anymore...

Day 19/30 No urges today, no erection even (abnormal!). I think this is what was meant with "flatlining"? On the other hand it could also be the increasing fatigue. In any case, I'm feeling confident about the 30 days. I will do this. I just don't want to lose track of the other goals I have...

I'll definitely mention it to him again as it's being worked on. It's definitely harder to 'fix' than kicking PMO but will undoubtedly be easier once I wrangle PMO. Thank you for your thoughts :)

That's part of the process man, don't lose hope! I recommend you re-read what Galatians51 said earlier. You can do this!

18/30 No issue with abstaining from PMO. No urges. I think it's sleep related, but when I have interrupted sleep or sleep less than my usual amount I am DEPRESSED. Like 'no hope for the future I think about walking into traffic' depressed. Today was one of those days and think it might be...

17/30 Forgot to write out the journal again but I have nothing to report. I'm super busy on vacation so when I have time in the hotel I just sleep haha. On to 18.

Day 16/30 I had an urge but wasn't ever in private today and by the time I was it was long gone. Triggered by someone walking by It was easy for the rest of the day but forgot to write up this post so I'm doing it the day after.

Nocturnal emission is super normal, don't worry about it. You'll have some from time to time, and you can't do anything about it so it's not a relapse. All I can say is... Enjoy changing out your underwear haha!

Day 15/30 Some close calls but no P, I remembered what I said and held myself to it. Onwardssss

Day 14/30 Man oh man! I got a lot done today, but at a cost. Two times I went away to do something else and couldn't resist the urge to look at porn. Just PM and no O, but I'm still disappointed. I have to say the urge was strong, I remember thinking "just say no" but I lost the battle...