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Hello Guys, I would like to thank you for your support. But I will no longer use this forum. There are several reasons. 1. If I put too much focus on the reboot, it's always in my mind and P gets way to much energy. So what, then from time to time I fuck up. I have had the same situation with...

Yes! Here I am! I have an 80 % success rate in april - there have been a few setbacks, but I've managed the majority of time clean! I can do it again today. In fact, the clean life is so much easier, because I don't beat myself up. I have a great life and I will be present and active today. Now...

Hei guys. Thank you for your words @cookiemonster! I am sorry to say, but I relapsed before lunchtime and in the afternoon. In total I had 3 relapses (PMO). Well at least I got 14 days down. Yeah. The thing is, my phone is not really a problem for me - I dont watch stuff on my phone - it all...

The work was just a one day thing, so all good. Got down a streak of 14 days... but these days I really feel bad. Yesterday in the gym I talked with my friend about my youtube and internet stuff, and how much time I was wasting with that... and this month I have around 3 days active screen time...

Hm. Yesterday was kind of allright but also pretty fucked up. I had a good day until I was at home studying in the afternoon and there was very loud work going on outside and it seemed like I did not make any progress - then I watched at the phone the first time and went from that into an...

Yesterday was much better. Had courses until lunch time. In the afternoon I studied. It was okay - not the best, but fine. And thousend times better than the day before. I spent the whole evening in the gym, which was great. The weightlifting club was there and they coached my form a bit and...

Yeah gameday Cookie! You got this! And try to avoid using your phone in the morning - it really destroys a lot of your focus. Maybe establish a rule to start using your phone after lunchtime... or s.th. that works for you. If the urges come up, you can distract yourself with working on those...

The battle is still going on. But I won yesterday - it was not a glorious victory, but I stayed true to the reboot - no P., no P. subs and not touched the D - yeah. Sounds like a really low accomplishment. Haha. Fuck that. I was really unproductive, had struggle with youtube and was watching...

Damn! Yesterday was a hard one - but I managed it. But I have to be very careful with Youtube and Series - I can't just watch a bit and then call it a day - I have the tendency to get sucket into it. But I am proud I shut it off yesterday before midnight. Dind't do any stupid in regard to P or...

Yes you are right @Androg ! Thanks for commeting and always reading the stuff I put out here. Yesterday in the evening I was watching a few series and had some "cheap dopamine" and I instantly felt shitty and knew, that this behaviour is dangerours and not s.th. I enjoy doing. It was still hard...

Wow - after 6 negative, unproductive weeks, I had a good week! I can really say: I am proud of myself. It's still a bit strange - if I focus too much on the reboot and on the streak, I tend to fuck it up. This week I focused on balance and put a lot of effort in good leisure - which then helped...

Gern! Actually it's really helpful for me - your no touching dick and no P affirmations are good reminders for me. In the morning I come to check out the forum, read your post and this gives me a positive impuls and I also use your affirmation for my journey. Thats great. For me shutting off...

Hei Cookie I just wanted to thank you for your entries here! You got today - you are doing a really good job!

Thank you Androg, but I don't think this is helpful for me. I tried sth in this direction already and did not like it. Actually I don't want to give PMO that much room in my life and focusing too much on the reboot is not really helpful. Stopping counting days works alright. The program I use...

Here I am again. Writing, after not writing for almost a month now. I am lost, I am down. I don`t know how to walk the way, what is right, what is working... This addiction is really fucking up my whole life. Brute willpower and discipline works for a few weeks, but I start failing, and after I...

So. 19.03.2023 9 Days no PMO & no MO I had an awesome weekend with my parents. We went hiking, visited the town and had a lot of quality time. Last week I got a bit sick, but decided to not care and still went out to train. I had to pay with being sick since friday, also had fever. With all...

Fr 17.03.2023 7 Days no PMO & no MO 1 h + 40 min Deep Work Hours 2 h Uni: Course no workout 0500 rise and shine Parents are over to visit me this weekend. We met up for coffee in the afternoon. Will take the weekend off and spent time with them. Made some affirmations this morning in order...

Thu 16.03.2023 6 Days no PMO & no MO 3 h + 5 min Deep Work Hours 4 h Uni: Course - was super prepared and did great! no workout 0530 rise and shine Morning: Course at university. Afternoon: Studying at home. Used 45-10 Pomodors (45 min work followed by 10 min break). Around 1800 I wanted to...

Wed 15.03.2023 5 Days no PMO & no MO 3 h Deep Work Hours 0 h Uni: Skipped Lecture 1 h Running: 10,7 km - avg. pace 6'16/km 0550 rise and shine Looking at the focused time, it looks not that good. I am a bit disappointed, but I am noticing some very important changes. You see: Going to the...

Okay. This is a response entry. It‘s 8:20 am. I got up at 5:50. Could finish my morning routine fast and was at the desk at 7 am. But I checked this forum in the morning, then opened WhatsApp and got in a clicking cycle… I have studied a bit, but I don‘t count it, because my focus was very low...