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Day 10 - No PMO: It's interesting that I bounced back relatively quickly after my last relapse. Usually I take about 2 weeks of bingeing after a relapse before I reach double digits again. This time I only relapsed for a couple of days and just got back to it. Anyways, just an interesting...

Day 9 - No PMO: I'm back at nine days after my last relapse. Going through a bit of a rough patch as of late, but hanging in there. Today has mostly been BDD-free, so I am grateful for that. I'm trying a mindset shift and also trying to reframe my OCD thoughts so that ruminations don't consume...

Thanks! I know they will

Day 8 - No PMO: My mood was still in a decline today. I try to keep a positive mindset but I am finding it difficult sometimes. My BDD and OCD is getting worse and I am struggling to finish mundane tasks. Mental health problems are very crippling and they cause me to question everything about...

Day 7 - No PMO: This one really has to work. Not because I'm tired of relapsing (which I am), but because my mental health is not as resilient as it was just a few months ago. I'm on the verge of cracking every day I continue with this journey. A relapse at this time in my life can have very...

Day 6 - No PMO: Another mostly uneventful day. I didn't have any serious urges to report on. My mental health is still not doing too well unfortunately. As I mentioned on yesterday's entry, I don't expect to see any improvement until a few weeks in. The number 1 priority right now is to...

Thanks for stopping by, @iwander. I hope (and trust) that my goal isn't a mirage and I will actually get somewhere in the end. I am 100% sure I will be in a better place by the 100th day, but I am not as sure about what specific aspect of my mental health will improve. Maybe my motivation...

Day 5 - No PMO: I missed yesterday's entry so typing it now. Had a bit of a tough day yesterday mental health-wise. I haven't had to deal with a lot of urges since my last relapse which is a plus. Days feel like they are blending into each other and I am waiting for something to happen. I feel...

Day 4 - No PMO: I haven't mentioned it before on this forum, but I may have severe ROCD (relationship OCD), which is characterised by obsessive thoughts about my relationship with my partner. This issue flared up towards the latter half of last year and was slowly consuming my mental health...

Day 3 - No PMO: Yesterday (missed the journal) was another okay day. I just went about my day as normal and didn't have any noteworthy urges. I keep ruminating about the time I lost to PMO over the years. The amount of damage I have done for myself also haunts me when I'm alone. I have severe...

Day 2 - No PMO: Another day another fight. I feel okay today and my mental health is not super bad. I don't know what to expect in terms of the coming days/weeks, but the sooner I go through this, the better. I will keep pushing for the rest of my life. I don't have much plans for today. I'm...

Thanks @Blondie, I really appreciate this!

Day 1 - No PMO: Started the day with a sense of acceptance that I have to push through despite what I'm feeling. I didn't get urges to watch, and I am just going about my day as normal. I've had a couple of good streaks in the past that started on 20 March, so I always feel good about this day...

It is @Blondie, sadly I had a slip. Starting my counter again.

Day 0: Unfortunately I slipped yesterday. I knew I was going to be home alone and I had prepared in advance to be out of the house. I woke up late and was hungry so I got food delivered. While I was waiting on the food I realised the urges were getting stronger. I did some urge surfing and...

Well I'll be darned...that's a lot of days. Congratulations @SmokenMirrors! Things only get better from here on out.

Day 9 - Nein PMO: Today was the last 'single digit' day, which in my case, historically denotes the start of the hardest period of my reboot. day 10 to 18 are the make-or-break days. As for today, it was quite easy in terms of urges with not a lot to report on. I will be home alone tomorrow so...

Thanks @Androg, much obliged!

Day 8 - No PMO: A very long and difficult day has passed. I wasn't hit by intense urges, but I was very stressed out because of work. I also want to note how porn completely robbed my ability to feel any enjoyment out of things. I can't wait to return back to 'normal'. It's been many years...

Day 7 - No PMO: Another porn free day takes me closer to my target. I was out of the house for most of today and didn't have much to deal with in terms of urges during, except in the morning when I was hit with some urges that made me do some push ups and go for a jog. I wasn't planning to...