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I'm 29. I'd still like to reboot my brain to my real life partner. I've attempted many reboots over the years, uncovering much about myself along the way. Every time I thought I'd reached the root, issue(s), I'd find something deeper. I now believe I've found the truest core roots and solutions...

🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪ (Level) 🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡(this week so far) 🔵🔵🔵🔵⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪(10 day success rate so far) 🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢⚪⚪⚪⚪(this month so far) 🔵🔵🔵🔵⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪(overall average, increasing!) 🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡(% of average) 🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢⚪⚪⚪(meditation rate) 🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢⚪(meditation rate with skip days) This issue and my trauma has led to...

01/10 (Day) 05/11 (Lvl) Success rates: 🔵🔵🔵⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪(log completion rate incl. skip days) 🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪(this week so far) 🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡(10 day success rate so far) 🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢⚪⚪⚪⚪(this month so far) 🔵🔵🔵🔵⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪(overall average) Have gone over by some decimal points! 🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡(% of average)...

08/10 (Day) 05/11 (Lvl) Success rates: 🔵🔵🔵⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪(log completion rate incl. skip days) 🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢⚪⚪⚪⚪(this week so far) 🔵🔵🔵🔵⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪(10 days) 🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢⚪⚪⚪⚪(this month so far) 🔵🔵🔵🔵⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪(overall average) Have gone over by some decimal points! 🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡(% of average) 🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢⚪⚪(meditation rate) I...

05/10 (Day) 05/11 (Lvl) Sadly after writing this I had a slip in bed so this post took place prior to that and is no longer accurate. Success rates: 🔵🔵🔵⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⬆️(log completion rate incl. skip days) 🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡⬆️ (this week so far) 🔵🔵🔵⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⬆️(10 days) 🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢⚪⚪⚪⬆️(this month so far)...

Agreed. I want to join more Buddhist groups again. This is part of me getting back into the spiritual side of things again. Thanks :)

04/10 (Day) 05/11 (Lvl) Success rates: 🔵🔵⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⬆️(log completion rate incl. skip days) 🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡 (this week so far) 🔵🔵⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪ (10 days) 🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢⚪⚪⚪⚪ (this month so far) 🔵🔵🔵🔵⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪ (overall average) 🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡⬆️(% of average) I have looked into 12 step groups for some time, done deep dives...

08/10 (Day) 04/11 (Lvl) Success rates: 🔵🔵⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪ (log completion rate incl. skip days) 🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢⚪⚪⚪⚪ (this week so far) 🔵🔵🔵⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪ (10 days) 🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢⚪⚪⚪⚪ (this month so far) 🔵🔵🔵🔵⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪ (overall average) 🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢⚪(% of average) Binged today. I have this issue: The executive dysfunction from porn...

07/10 (Day) 04/11 (Lvl) Success rates: 🔵🔵⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪ (log completion rate incl. skip days) 🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡 (this week so far) 🔵🔵🔵⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪ (10 days) 🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡🟡 (this month so far) 🔵🔵🔵🔵⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪ (overall average) 🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢⚪(% of average) I have been trying to apply mindful priniciples and just be with my...

Day 5/10 Success rates: 🔵🔵⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪ (log completion incl. skip days) 🔵🔵🔵🔵⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪ (this week) 🔵⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⬆️ (10 days) 🔵🔵🔵⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪ (this month) 🔵🔵🔵🔵⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪ (overall average) 🔵🔵🔵🔵🔵🔵🔵🔵🔵⚪ (% of average) I had ADHD paralysis all day. I had things I wanted to do but ended up doing nothing on my bed. I...

Day 3/10 🔵🔵🔵🔵⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪ (this week) ⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪ (10 days) 🔵🔵🔵⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪ (this month) 🔵🔵🔵🔵⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪⚪ (overall) I'm gonna start focusing on 10 day increments and success rates and re-evaluate for each one. I think I should reward each one somehow too maybe.

No question prompts today. I've been binging like crazy. I only really thought to come here because of how intense this has been. This issue, I've had it so long and when I say I've tried everything it isn't one of those cases where the person doesn't truly mean it or is ignorant to anything. I...

The needs I am using porn as a strategy to attempt to meet: Acceptance Affection Appreciation Authenticity Autonomy Awareness (self/other) Beauty Belonging Calm Care Closeness Communion Compassion Challenge Comfort Community Competence Connection Creativity Curiosity Determination Ease...

Did I act-out today and engaged in identifiable patterns? What can I do about preventing repeats? (not even necesarily porn) Yes. I did. I need blockers. I've only set up the habit to reset them each day but no mental resources at all to set them in place yet. High dopamine autopilot when alone...

I'm in the steady range of slighty more than 40% success and have been for a while since I started. Considering this is my baseline and I can be doing more is very encouraging not demotivating. Seeing it visualised in spreadsheet form and keeping multiple metrics has really been helping me see...

092% of average success rate Did I act-out today and engaged in identifiable patterns? What can I do about preventing repeats? Had some major binges going on. Was home alone. That's all it takes for me to end up relapsing. I think it's the inability to be with myself and all the pressure on...

097% of average success rate 067% weekly rate so far 060% monthly rate so far 057% weekly rate for checking-in Back on track. Being with my partner helps. Having new workmates who like talking to me helped. Learning NVC helped. Being more open about my opinions helped. Making an effort with...

092% of average success rate 023% Better than last week 2 day avg. to get back on track I slipped up quite a bit today. I was home alone and not seeing how much pressure I was putting on myself to do something. I still had old chats and accounts on my phone which I've now deleted. It led to a...

089% of average success rate 060% success so far this week 2 day avg. to get back on track I've been at this for about 11 years and tried many things. What I never knew earlier on was that my focus should have been more directly on my trauma and all the early influencers of my addiction so...

088% of average success rate Did I act-out today and engaged in identifiable patterns? What can I do about preventing repeats? Yes. I watched porn in my room. What's driving my relapses is life overwhelm and feeling like I missed out in life. It's also from boredom and my low tolerance for it...