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Day 1. Grumpy most of the day. Went out with the family in the evening and felt better.

Well back to 0. I watched a movie, then switched to adult stuff on YouTune, and watched it till 2 am. Still had to get up at 6am to take my kid to school. Feeling sleepy at work today.

Day5. Unconsciously get sucked back by YouTube and waste time, but it gives a false impression that it is important to watch it and we should not miss out on this or utilise our free time. Utilising my free time to watch YouTube seems to be a trap for me.

Day4. Holding on. The end of day 3 was not great with some big quarrels with the teenage son for blocking his wifi internet access at night and asking him to go and sleep, but I could go and sleep well. Not watching YouTube or even listening to some podcasts (even though the content is...

Day 2. Was very busy from 6am to 10pm. Did some volunteer work for total strangers. Back home after hectic physical work. So no time or even some honey thoughts. My phone was switched off most of the time. Sunday went like this. If only every day was like this.

Day 1 went well. Reduced my YouTube time. I am planning fixed time for this and only specific channels.

Again back to 0. This time I can't blame anyone. I just gave in to addiction. Just browsing through YouTube and not finding anything to take my full attention. My mind is not clear now. Has to bring back clarity. Now I am in an unreal world of illusion. If anything disturbed this, I will find...

Gave up after 8 days. The urge is coming in waves. I had not had real sex for 2 months. There is no real bond with my wife. Married for more than 17 years and having two kids. Sex with her is always a struggle. She has pain even after using lubrication. She does not like any foreplay. Does not...

After 10 days, back to 0. I feel more relaxed. I had a lot of internal stress staying away from PMO. Now things are back to my routine. As long as my family does not find out, it seems fine. One day they will find out. Maybe they will understand or humiliate me.

After 250 days, I gave up and re-lapsed. Now I am back to what I was before. Not keeping away PMO for more than 2-3 days. So I am back in the ditch. Let me again start from 0. This is my day 0. Maybe you are right that I have phone addition and that is leading me back to PMO. Or the main issue...

Day 193: I should be feeling great that I have not seen porn for 193 days, but I am not. I now got this habit of staying up late in the night and watching some endless series till I get tired. Else I am struggling to sleep. I only used to watch family-rated shows, but last night I did derail a...

Day 133: Days are going by as ordinary days. There is no urge to return to PMO or any view any sexy material. I mostly watch 13+ age group videos to be safe. Not very interesting for 40+ adult, but it is much better than the guilt and shame. It is a change of mid-set. Not sure if this approach...

Day 111: 10 days more went like a breeze. So all good. I did face many issues in my personal life in last two weeks, but I could handle them head-on and not try to take refuge or PMO.

Day 101: Wow crossed a major milestone. Thank God and all the people in the forum who have assisted and inspired me to achieve this. I bow down to all of you. I am sure I would have not reached this stage without this website and your support. The battle is won, but the war continues. There are...

It is so true. Unfortunately most people probably think of performance. They can let go this performance fear after some age if porn is not part of their life.

Day 92: I forgot that I am in re boot and I need to update in forum . It feels natural to not think about sex and porn. Those thoughts are not there now. Never thought such day will come. Now I have to just maintain it and not get carried away. That should not be that tough now, but the...

Day 84: Recently I am having frequent sex with my wife. Most of the time, she is initiating it and I happily oblige. Not sure if it has something to do with reboot. Maybe she is sensing some change in me. She s not aware of the re-root. The good part is, I was able to do it without any guilt or...

Day 81: I feels I am getting good at it and that I could keep this for ever. I have to deal with my issues and not take refuge on PMO. My imotions are my problem and I have to face it. At times I could be sad, depressed and lonely. It is my responsibility to come out of it more wiser. Use it to...

Day 72: Smile when you are happy. Amazing that it works the other way also. Just show your teeth and stretch your chin to put an artificial smile. Suddenly you feel lighter and genuinely happier for no reason. Your focus should be on making the smile look as genuine as possible. When you get a...

Day 70: Feeling better. I tried finding reasons for gratitude and there are plenty. So that was good. That made me feel closer to some. I never missed anyone in my life. I trained myself to be ok even if I am lonely and now I don't like to be in a group for long. I don't log in and check...