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Hope you don’t mind my weighing in. I’ve been following your thread for a while and it’s clear your stuck in cycle perpetuated by your thinking patterns. “I try and I can’t quit, I’m useless.” “This is so hard, I hate myself.” “I fucked it again, I’m hopeless.” You’ve never broken free of it...

It’s amazing to see 50 days now! It always seems like such a long time, but when I think back to the start of this streak, it doesn’t seem so long ago. Massive inspiration as always. Amazing work!

An update following my last day 0. That reboot didn’t last long. Not even a day actually. It lead to the heaviest relapse I’d had in a very long time. The whole thing stretched over a couple of days where I could not seem to help myself, indulging every old craving and vice, spiralling madly...

Welcome back from a fellow relapser. I know all too well how bad it can get before you make the decision to come here. But it really is the first step to helping yourself. Everyone here will celebrate your successes and help pick you up when you need it, and with perseverance you can get past...

Well damn. Slipped up yesterday. Not in a big way but it puts me back to 0. Like before I want to focus on the positive. Each time seems to be a little easier and each relapse less severe. I’m setting a target for myself to reach a month this time. I think with the progress I’m making and with...

20 days and counting. My best run in a long time. I’m trying to ascribe as little time and thought to any of this as possible. Minimise it from my life. But it isn’t easy. Some days go by quickly, other days when I find myself with spare time can be really tough. I came across a tip recently...

It’s been over a week since my last post and all has been well. I’m feeling the need to quickly check in. Typically around now things have gotten tough. It has also been a historical falling point so I need to be extra vigilant. Usually the slip happens out of nowhere and what is a good run...

Just a quick check in to keep me on track. Smooth sailing so far. Still that incessant niggle that likes to tempt me. But it’s all good.

Three days done, and into the fourth. I’m finding that each subsequent attempt is getting easier, and the cravings are noticeably less. That is not to say there are no challenges. It is still hard at times to resist the urge, but it comes less often and I am able to distract myself when it...

Day two down. And not much to report. I’ve decided a name change was probably overdue. The last name I set when I signed up here almost ten years back. And that in itself was a name I used for video games when I was in my teens. Its safe to say I’m not the same person I was back then, and this...

It’s amazing how I can make the same spelling mistake twice in the same post. I should probably spell check before I post from my phone again. Or maybe not. It does make for brilliant quotes like this.

Well first day is over. Back on the wagon as it were. After some time to reflect, I understand some more of what went wrong. That said it is no major revelation just your typical addict relapsing into old patterns. As we all know, for an addict there is no such this as just one drink, one...

A small slip today. Not a full PMO but enough where I wouldn’t feel comfortable without a reset. That niggling of a peek turned into a long look. I was able to pull myself away but I’ve now been 0 days without porn. I do feel overall I am improving. And this episode was less than the one...

Day nine done. Feeling like I’m able to make a bit more space for other things without my mind immediately jumping to porn now. I do eventually drift if I spend too long on something, but it is an improvement on my previous state of mind.

Eight days and the worst of the pangs are over for now. I’m also massively busy for the next week or so, which means I don’t have much time to myself. Normally something I find frustrating, it is a welcome relief. That should get me to two weeks if all goes well.

It is amazing what a difference it can be from one day to the next. And things have certainly been smoother sailing today. I feel like I have some of my sanity back for a start. And the hurdle of a week does certainly give you the motivation to keep going. Roll on week 2.

One week down. Glad to hear those flashbacks were common. They really did get intense, and can’t say I’ve ever had them before. For now everything seems to have died down. Yesterday was by far the toughest day so far this reboot. Like every part of me was desperate for me to fail. It feels...

Made it through day six. Now I’m not sure if anyone else has had this, but I’ve been having what I can only call intense flashbacks. Yes, flashbacks to porn. When my mind wanders it sometimes lands on images that I have used a lot in the past, and comes with an intense rush of those same...

I can already feel the pull today, and I know it’s going to be a tough one. That dark part of my brain is pulling all the usual tricks, and today it has the time and space to do it. I know distraction is key, and so I’m making a list of jobs that need doing around the house. It always hits...

Thanks. This stuff happens. Means I’m a bit stuck at home for the next couple of days which is the bigger challenge. Cars are an east fix, unlike this dumb addiction we have.