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Relapsed this morning. Man. This is bullshit. What the fuck is the problem?

Had a 6 day streak. Relapsed last sunday because I was super tired and tried to force myself to study - went on autopilot. Today I struggeled with fear and panic because of the upcoming exam - I opened up a P site, but shut it down, because I thought of the girl and that I really like her and...

Relapsed on monday. Activated structured and better internet restrictions. Had a good day studying yesterday, but experienced some ED during sex with my girl. I could not enjoy the lovemaking - and that was very terrible.

Hold the line! :)

Reboot: 1 d Deep Work: 3.5 h

Catastrophy. Reboot: 0 d Full on PMO relapses, multiple times. Internet blocks are not working: There is a kick in finding ways around them - they provide a false safety for me. I relapsed in the morning. Then multiple times throughout the day. Fuck.

Reboot: 11 d Digital Minimalism: 0 d Deep work: 1,75 h Baseline: 2d Yes, I already have blocked YT again. I have once paied for the "cold turkey"blocker - but I have mixed feelings about it... It only works, if I see it as an additional safety thing - but its not a solution to the problem. The...

How is your "careful use of social media" streak going? Shall we both start at 0 again?

Thank you for your truth androg! Man. It sucks. I will write more metascript entrys in my own journal and will put the effort in, to optimize this behaviour. This night I woke up super horny, was kind of jerking off - but could calm myself and didn't do it. But in the morning I was...

Reboot: 10 d Digital Minimalism: 0 d Deep work: 2,5 h Had a bad start in the morning - watched youtube until lunchtime. Then headed to university and had a productive study afternoon. The evening was spent in front of YT again. I promise myself to do better tomorrow. The good thing is: I set...

Reboot: 9 d Digital Minimalism: 1 d Good morning. The weekend was exhausting, but interesting. On saturday I could not keep clean from the YT Videos and I let myself slip into a bit of escapism. This was not good - I did't treat myself well there. I had no profit from that - just negative...

Allright cookie - back to business! 20 weeks is a huge number! You got this

And there are some more things I would like to add. I am now back after the holidy. Last time I studied for the exam, I paniced and got lost in the escapism. It is summertime - and from last year I know, staying at the campus during summer time when literally no one else is there, is hard. So I...

Good morning. New day. I commit to a P and PSub free day. Easy peasy. I got this. I already made a plan for the day, which I will follow now. In the afternoon another nightshift starts and tomorrow I will meet up with the girl - so a busy weekend, no time for P. And to be honest: I don't want...

Reboot: 7 d Today I travelled back to my place. The week back at home was awesome - but I was also really happy to get back to the country I now life in. I really like it here more than the place I come from. Now its time to get back on track and to get things going. Ah one thing: Back home...

I was travelling back home and read your text on the train. Man - I had such a big smile on my face. I am happy for you! Sounds like a really good time you had with that girl. Congratulations on your rebooting progress.

Reboot: 3 d Holiday at my parents place Hei thanks for checking in on me! Its been fairly easy the last days, because I had nightship on the ambulance, witch was a lot of fun. Then I had a really long travel to my hometown and have been spending the day today with my family. Its going to be...

Hei cookie, its great to hear you enjoying your time with the girl. Don't be too hard or overthinking with what to try or not - the best tip I can give you is to just be relaxed about what happens or does not happen. Just enjoy the intimacy. And its great to hear you communicating well with the...

Hei and good morning! Yes cookie - you will get 1 d clean - no problemo ;) We got this! The next two days will be very interesting :D The next two days I will be super busy, working and also travelling to my hometown - that will be great and make reaching the one day streak quiete easy. I will...

Reboot: 0 d Baseline: 0 d Digital Minimalism: 0 d Deep Work: 0 - planned free day. Wow. What a zero counter. Had another slip this morning, on the pc full pmo - after I watched more YT and tried to escape my shame... Well this doesn't lead anywhere. I shut down the pc afterwards, restet a bit...