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  1. Qwertyxyz

    Doing things differently this time

    Day 9 PMO free It’s been great to get a week up but I feel myself weakening a bit. I need to keep pushing out of my comfort zone. At work and am very tired. I can do this
  2. Qwertyxyz

    Doing things differently this time

    Day 6 PMO free Doing alright, am planning to talk to people more about my recovery. I know that i keep things to myself too much. Social anxiety gets in the way of my getting true recovery. I need to let others in but feel like im getting better all the time. Great to have some time up. I have...
  3. Qwertyxyz

    Doing things differently this time

    Still haven’t got this. It’s hard, I know what is affecting me. There is such an issue with my ex, she is not well and has our son. It’s pretty messy and I know it’s the emotional reason behind my constant relapses. It’s hard. I need to seek out more discussion about this, I might try PAA or a...
  4. Qwertyxyz

    Doing things differently this time

    Day 16 PMO free I like my head being clear. I hate the brain fog when I’m deep in porn use. I feel capable of getting clean. I run a support group for people with autism, if I use it gets a lot harder and much more stressful. Life is much harder when I use.
  5. Qwertyxyz

    Doing things differently this time

    Day 15 PMO free Hanging in there. I feel my energy is better today, I’ve been pretty busy mentally. There is a lot happening in my life right now and it will all go bad if I go back to hiding in PMO. Good luck out there.
  6. Qwertyxyz

    Doing things differently this time

    Day 14 PMO free Glad to get here (2 weeks). It’s early days but I’m doing well I think. I hope when I get home I can build up more support. Happy to have the time up 🙂
  7. Qwertyxyz

    Doing things differently this time

    Day 13 PMO free Feeling alright, yesterday was one of those days when everyone wanted to talk to me and I just wanted to do my job, as an autistic person I hate this. I was pretty shaky after, it hard when you aren’t understood. I want to say I feel quite today and hopefully they will leave me...
  8. Qwertyxyz

    Doing things differently this time

    Day 12 PMO free Good to get another day done. I’m feeling mentally fatigued today so I need to be careful. Self care really helps. I’m trying to look for things behind my recovery, things I distract from. There is a lot there. I should do something now, being active helps.
  9. Qwertyxyz

    Doing things differently this time

    Day 11 PMO free Feeling a bit funky this morning. I have a new phone which is great, I have no porn on my new phone and have not looked at porn on this phone. I know my old phone has porn on it and became the main focus of my PMO recently. I once kept my phone porn free and just got my fix from...
  10. Qwertyxyz

    Doing things differently this time

    Day 10 PMO free I have to stay disciplined about distracting from PMO thought's, they will just lead to use. PMO use will mess me up, I like how I feel socially when I’m not using PMO, I pay a high price for my use. This is the best day so far when it comes to intrusive craving thoughts, they...
  11. Qwertyxyz

    Doing things differently this time

    Day 9 PMO free I have to stay disciplined about distracting from PMO thought's, they will just lead to use. PMO use will mess me up, I like how I feel socially when I’m not using PMO, I pay a high price for my use.
  12. Qwertyxyz

    Doing things differently this time

    Day 8 PMO free I need to be vigilant about distracting from my PMO thoughts, they come up regularly and I don’t like them. Short term goals are really good for me, if I can get another week it will be great, every day is a victory. I’m at work using their wifi. If I relapse and look at stuff I...
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    Doing things differently this time

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  14. Qwertyxyz

    Doing things differently this time

    Day 7 PMO free Feels good to get a week down. It’s been tense but I’m doing well. This time around feels more serious and disciplined than my last attempt so I’m determined to beat the 15 day mark, and also my 75 days best. One day at a time. I’m focusing on my breathing and it’s helping me be...
  15. Qwertyxyz

    Doing things differently this time

    Day 6 PMO free Feeling pretty good in recovery now, I feel that I’m more aware of what’s at stake than I was last attempt, that one was only about 15 days so I’m determined to beat that. I’ve been having a lot of feelings about my ex who was a bit of a psycho when we were together, we have a...
  16. Qwertyxyz

    Doing things differently this time

    Day 5 PMO free Early on. I feel good but definitely cravings. I have looked in to coaching and a few other things and might try something different when I get home from work. I’m doing a thought journal at the end of the day which is helping me a great me to feel less anxious. I need to work...
  17. Qwertyxyz

    Doing things differently this time

    Day 4 PMO free Busy day, but I’m doing well. Everything is better when I am off PMO. 1st day back at work. Need to stay disciplined.
  18. Qwertyxyz

    Doing things differently this time

    Day 3 PMO free If I use PMO my brain is so much foggier, I’m more anxious and fail at do many things. My life will not be happy if I’m using. I have goals that I won’t achieve if I use porn this year. I need to stay strong
  19. Qwertyxyz

    Doing things differently this time

    Day 2 PMO free I had a good session with my psychologist the other week. There is a lot of trauma to work through but it’s great to have it out there. PMO recovery is for me much harder than alcohol (21 years sober) as porn is so much sneakier mentally. I am working hard to question my...
  20. Qwertyxyz

    Doing things differently this time

    Day 01 PMO free Well here I go again, another attempt at quitting porn. I’m glad I’ve had some time up in the past, it’s like a proof of concept, mentally I feel in some ways more wise and mature, but also I’ve done some healing. The cost of using porn is high for me, I will bang through life...
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