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    Life and Peace (Romans 8:6)

    Got busy with work and neglected logging on to RN to journal...and it definitely affected me. I slipped up a few days ago. It's like when I'm steady on RN, I do well. But when I am not journaling here semi regularly, I slowly slip away. I realized a long time ago that my p problem had really...
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    Life and Peace (Romans 8:6)

    Another day free. I’m still fighting compulsive behaviors that eventually lead me to pics and vids that trigger me. Mostly this is just YouTube shorts or Instagram. I don’t have them on my phone so it’s harder to access but when I do, I can easily fall into a pit and spiral. I’ve had some...
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    Life and Peace (Romans 8:6)

    Haven't posted in a few days. Been busy with work and family, but overall things are going well. I'm not as focused on p and more focused on other things which I know helps. It feels strange not to count the days, but I'm enjoying the freedom it seems to give. I just feel like I've moved on in...
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    Life and Peace (Romans 8:6)

    Another day. Just one day at a time. Yesterday was fine. I don't expect much hardship this soon, but I know it's on its way. Yesterday offered a few opportunities to avert my eyes from images that are likely benign to most, but for me can be triggering. That urge to study the image was there...
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    Life and Peace (Romans 8:6)

    Thanks for the replies, guys. It helps knowing folks read what we post...it helps me at least to keep motivated to post. Just remembering to post everyday is a simple replacement for using p. @Nico you're right. thanks for the encouragement that all that I've learned during my long period of...
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    Life and Peace (Romans 8:6)

    As a massive Star Wars fan, I dig it! I also think sometimes about a line from an Avett Brothers song "decide who you want to be and go be it". Never that easy but I like the focus!
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    Life and Peace (Romans 8:6)

    Day 1 was as expected. I'm still generally down about my problem and cautiously optimistic about how this reboot will go. I didn't expect to relapse yesterday...one day at a time, right? So today is another day. I don't plan well for the healthy habits I know I need to form, so I'm working on...
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    Life and Peace (Romans 8:6)

    I freaking hate this. I'm embarrassed that I tried to start over in February only to make a few days. I experienced such freedom for almost a whole year! And now it's been another year of bondage. I'm going to try this again. I have had an up and down struggle over the past year, but lately...
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    Life and Peace (Romans 8:6)

    Day 3 I caught myself eyeing psubs today as they popped up on my social media feeds. One major factor in my last streak of 241 days is that I removed all social media from my phone. If I want to view any social media, I have to use my laptop, which is far more inconvenient. But lately I've...
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    Life and Peace (Romans 8:6)

    Day 2 Busy lately with work, and I used to think that was a distraction. Now I know that when I get busy, I tend to seek out P. It feels like an escape. Also, I know that I tend to seek out P when I'm alone, bored, tired, sad, overwhelmed, anxious, etc.... So basically, most of the time. I...
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    Life and Peace (Romans 8:6)

    Well, I'm back. I REALLY need to be on RN more often. I have struggled to stay away from P for months now. I had a streak of 241 days that ended in August of last year, and I keep trying to figure out how to get back to that place. The one factor that I've not implemented is regular journaling...
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    Refreshing help

    I don't want to be the guy who recommends the perfect book that will help everyone get over porn in 7 practical steps...and this book isn't that! Its a refreshing take on porn addiction and how to view porn as a whole. It doesn't shame. It encourages. It doesn't downplay porn. It calls it evil...
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    Life and Peace (Romans 8:6)

    Day 3 Nothing big to report today, but I'm hopeful that simply reporting/journaling regularly will help me get back on track. I'm building on my 241 day reboot and trying not to get stuck on the couple of times I've stumbled after. Some temptation last night when an opportunity opened up, but I...
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    Life and Peace (Romans 8:6)

    Squidward81, you can do this too. If I can make it 241 days without PMO ANYBODY can! And I'm reminding myself that I can do it again as well.
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    Life and Peace (Romans 8:6)

    Day 1 I'm currently in a pattern of slipping up about once every month or so. I realize this started after my initial relapse on August 11. Since then, it's just been easier to slip up and harder to get back on the wagon. I slipped last night because my wife is out of town and I PMO'd...the...
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    Life and Peace (Romans 8:6)

    Been a while since I've been here, but I feel the need to journal again. I stopped counting days and have been doing pretty well, except the temptation is stronger than ever. Since my relapse on August 11, I've had a couple more episodes. I was generally able to stay positive and keep moving...
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    How Shall We Escape?

    Phin, thx for the post. I just posted about a recent failure, and your post highlights much of what caused it for me. I had set myself up for failure by letting some benign things like facebook, twitter, etc... trip me up. Even Spotify had begun to trip me up as I was curious about some sexually...
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    Life and Peace (Romans 8:6)

    I stopped counting days after the slip up I journaled about in my last post. Since then I've been struggling to get back on course. I found myself mo longer averting my eyes from triggers and in some cases even looking for them. It came to a head yesterday when I had a full on episode of PMO. I...
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    Life and Peace (Romans 8:6)

    Relapse. I hate even typing that word, but I slipped up last night. Work has been more stressful than ever, I wasn't feeling great, and I couldn't sleep, so I found myself wide awake and alone at 1:30 am. Recipe for disaster. I take some comfort in that it didn't involve typical p that I use to...
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    Life and Peace (Romans 8:6)

    Day 214 SUPER stressed with work lately, and MAN that does it for me! I've learned during my reboot that stress is probably my biggest trigger. I've not slipped up, but I laid in the bed having a lazy morning before work, and I realized if I'm ever going to relapse, it would be during those...
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