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  1. tydurden

    Exciting days!!

    Day 0 yeah so I relapsed. Been relapsing for the last few months. It's just horrible to think about how many hours of my life this addiction will consume. I think we are already talking months. Let's say I do this on average 10 hours a week since I was 15 and I live to be 80. That adds to...
  2. tydurden

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    Day 143 no P Day 2 no O I honestly don't know if I can get rid of my addiction to Psubs without introducing plenty of new things in my life. The problem is, as long as I can spend hours on P subs when I feel lonely or bored I will never actually start living my life again. I want to exercise...
  3. tydurden

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    Day 141 no porn Failing horribly at no substitutes for porn. And I am not really feeling any improvements all. No porn is easy at this point, but I have to step up my game. Will try to go without P subs or masturbation for a while and see what happens.
  4. tydurden

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    Thanks @Blondie ! im starting! No more porn subs. It steals too much of my time and is an addiction. Day 123 days no P Day 2 no Psubs
  5. tydurden

    Exciting days!!

    Relapse 115 days without porn. Although that is factually true it is a lie - and I have been lying to myself for a while now. Stopping turning to porn was not that hard, but I have been using substitutes that I think I am far more addicted to than porn. In other words, relapse, big time...
  6. tydurden

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    Day 87 Progress in time spent away from porn. Not feeling much progress otherwise
  7. tydurden

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    Day 84 Also day 10 no PMO. Doing good with stating away from porn. Libido is pretty much non-existent and feeling depressed.
  8. tydurden

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    @homerun Congrats on 42 days - that's awesome! Have you gone 42 without MO as well or just with out porn (which is still impressive)? Great that you are feeling you can do this. Bring that feeling with you. Just because I relapsed after 70 days does not mean you will. Just keep fighting. Some...
  9. tydurden

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    Day 78 @creativenothing thanks for the harsh truth. I have not used substitutes in 2023. I dont't honestly know if I can quit it for good. Every time I feel bad ablut myself, that is what I go to to feel better. It sucks. Im honestly not sure how to get my life in order, I am so extremely lazy...
  10. tydurden

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    Day 77 without porn Staying off from porn is easier and easier and I am doing well with that. But I have been cheating a lot lately with substitites. I probably should reset my counter but I don't want to. And I am proud of no porn for 77 days. And I do feel better. I am not experiencing much...
  11. tydurden

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    Still day 67 This will be a tough week. I have literally nothing to do and I really need a break from my family now and then. Very tempted to PMO. Need to find something else to do. Like reading a book or something. Haha this is bound to fail. The best way out of this is to just MO without P or...
  12. tydurden

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    Day 67 Hey guys! @Trisquel @Blondie Thanks a lot. I am speechless. It's just awesome how much dedication you put into helping out other (totally random) people. It truly helps and you are so right. Thank you. I have been busy and stayed off substitutes the last week. And @Blondie is right, it...
  13. tydurden

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    Day 60 I lost my MO streak. And I did it using substitutes. Basically chatting to girls on Tinder. Girls I wouldnt date, its purely a digital sex thing. It isn't porn, but for me it is pretty much the same, I get the exact same dopamine rush. I will keep my counter, but I know this is taking me...
  14. tydurden

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    Day 58 no P, day 8 no O Pretty strong urges. No MO makes the porn urges greater. My libido is still low, I just get pornographic urges. Very easily triggered by just seeing half a boob online.
  15. tydurden

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    Day 57 no P Also no MO for 7 days. Staying away from MO for more than 5 days definitely gives me some positive effects and I think I want to add that to my life in the long run as well. For now, I will do it for as long as I can, but with that I can feel strong urges to watch porn or...
  16. tydurden

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    Day 55 no P Day 6 no MO. Been sticking to all my goals except exercise and netflix. And tonight I am going to a party that I just dont want to be the guy who doesnt drink so I will have a few drinks. Will (for the first time ever) try to moderate my alcohol intake. At least stay away from thos...
  17. tydurden

    Moving forward!

    I completely agree on the "clean MOing"! Those porn induced fantasies feels allmost just as bad as watching porn and you are left with that shameful feeling after MO. Remember that the work you have put in still counts even though you had a relapse. Stay clean and have a good weekend!
  18. tydurden

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    Day 51 no porn Mabaged to stick to my goals. Except Netlix. I just got bored and was to tired to do anything productive. Will watch less Netflix tomorrow
  19. tydurden

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    Day 50 Yey. Does not feel like a win. Over the last fifty days I have not been feeling very good. I have walked away from a potential relationship and even rejected a few bootycalls. I dont know if its the substitutes fault or not, but I dont feel the sexual healing as much as I did during my...
  20. tydurden

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    Day 49 I have been using substitutes for the last few days. Basically chatting to girls on Tinder. So I think its time to quit Tinder. I want to take a break from dating anyways. Need to step it up to continue this healing process. Feeling pretty down in general. Low energy, easily irritated...
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