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    Diary of thoughts (24)

    Day 3: Yesterday went really well, I went out with friends from college. It was fun. Today I have to do some studies and exercise.
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    Day 1: I didn't see my last relapse as going back to square one. Because there were many things different this time, first there was no P, second I stopped in middle of M multiple times, third after O the first thought was how did that happen I wasn't even aroused? and the last, I didn't go for...
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    Day 0: I relapsed, I think 5th day is the point where I have to get my defenses strong. I MO without P. There was resistance, I stopped multiple times but most of it was compulsive like I have been doing it for so long that I actually have to make effort to stop whereas the act happens without...
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    My first mobile phone was Samsung B2100 Marine. I absolutely loved it. It was built to last, literally. It was waterproof (or maybe spill-proof), it was shock proof, it had amazing battery life. It was also the phone on which I first watched porn. Barely 2 inches of viewing screen. I remember it...
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    Day 4 : Feeling a lot lethargic today, have a long list of things to be done today. I like the idea of sharing images. So here's something from my favorite comic
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    Day 3 : I haven't seen much dreams for a long time, most probably I do have them while sleeping but I don't remember them. I have just woken up from an evening nap, and I had a dream. One that I remember, one that I wish I didn't, like all the others. In this one people were dying not just any...
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    Day 2 : nothing much to share, had some thoughts as I was alone at home today, ignored them. Feeling sleepy. Difficulty in following through work & classes. P.S. Maybe happiness is not something to be found, but created.
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    Day 1, was a busy Sunday today. Just realized that I haven't been meditating for past couple of days, will do it today. Couldn't exercise also, just did some pushups right now. Still have a lot of things to do, I am taking a lot of initiatives in my college (masters) so have some...
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    I have this feeling that porn has taken away my memories, it has made my mind dull to the point where I can't remember a lot of things. This might sound as rubbish to some but I have instances where I started getting few memories back when I was away from PMO for a stretch of time. Also after...
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    Day 0 Disappointed with myself. I joined this place on April 20, today is Sep 4. That's 5 months, or 157 days and I couldn't even stay away from PMO for a stretch of whole one month during this period. Again aiming for next 7 days will keep increasing it.
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    Day 0 (8 more to go) Relapsed, don't want to talk about it. Will reduce the time I spend here & total on screen. Made the mistake of staying awake for long. Reminding basics: sleep on time + meditation + exercise
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    Having strong urges today. Penis was erect 2-3 times and the first time I went on searching for porn, even started watching one, somehow stopped and kept my phone away. I was alone at home then, my mind sees that as a cue. Also I was about to masturbate, my hand started touching, somehow stopped...
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    Day 5 (3 more to go) Talking of movies yesterday I feel like I should share some of the ones I remember currently, those which makes me feel good. The Intouchables, 2011 french Life is Beautiful, 1997 Italian Like Stars on Earth, 2007 Indian Barfi, 2012 Indian The Pursuit of Happyness, 2006...
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    I had few urges today. Didn't heed to them, had even started touching, happened almost automatically, stopped and diverted my focus to something else. I finished reading the book. Absolutely loved it and I won't lie 2-3 times in the story while I was reading tears rolled down. It felt so real...
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    Day 4 (4 more to go) Last night I started reading the book and I couldn't keep it down. I read it till, I think, 6-7 am in the morning. And slept then and have woken up just now. Haven't read at such a stretch before in my life. I know it is unhealthy and can feel lethargy. It makes me cautious...
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    Day 3 (5 more to go) I have started reading The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini, had it for a long time even started twice but left after 50-60 pages. This time I'm going to finish it, currently at page 110. I love how with total honesty the author writes about the two kids in the story, you can...
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    Journal of an Addict Who's Trying to be a Focused Artist

    Dude this is not cringy-worthy at all (in my honest opinion), I have myself done much much worse. And regarding the previous advice about talking in person/call, I totally agree with it. There is nothing wrong in feeling something about a person, they might not reciprocate it but that doesn't...
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    Day 2 (6 more to go) Do you know about Vipassana? It's a meditation technique where you focus on your breath (I'm at basic level so this is all I know). There's nothing new here right? The interesting part is the technique, here they don't say that you should not think about anything else or...
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    💪 Just do it!) #nofap

    I have this problem of running out of things to talk about, I was thinking what do you really talk about when you talk to girls? For me I usually don't have much to say and run out of all the things in like 2 mins *_*
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    Fighting The New Drug

    Congratulations man!!
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