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I have been engaging in more casual relationships but in an ethical and loving way. It's been meeting my needs well. I'm unable to gain erections at the moment. Porn and psychological aspects are a big part but I also still have a long-running pelvic-floor issue. I'm dating a new person on...

I like to take unconventional paths as long as I've deeply considered them. Why? Mainly because after years of seeing the same results, nothing will change if you don't fundamentally change something. So that's how I approach recovery and the things I've mentioned above. I didn't view anything...

Thanks for your vulnerable sharing. It helps me feel support. I have connected with one of those people I mentioned but I'm prioritizing honesty and connection. I'm making sure our humanity comes first. She is a sex worker but we are dating. I've decided that I'm poly and ENM and that this...

I'm in pain but I can't feel it. Deep down, it's there. I bury it. I intellectualize it. I smother it with porn and orgasms, and dating apps, and external validation. I binge on sugar. I neglect all my needs just to meet one: Safety. But it's not keeping me safe at all. I'm getting harmed by all...

Thank you for your encouraging words and your advice. I'm very grateful because I do want a lot more support at the moment. Today I acted out in ways that are usual for me: Use of dating apps and chats with women as dopamine and self-regulation. Seeking sex. This isn't meeting my need to be...

I've had enough of the damage this has caused in my life and those around me. It's seeped into my life in so many harmful ways to a point where this isn't my own issue anymore. For example, just about every monogamous relationship I've had, has ended due to this issue. And my last partner didn't...

I most certainly have trauma. I also know there are systemic issues that lead to so many people having porn addicitons. I think the individualistic narrative needs to go. We are social communal creatures. I am not responsible for the porn industry, the ideas pushed about masculinity, women and...

I'm 29. I'd still like to reboot my brain to my real life partner. I've attempted many reboots over the years, uncovering much about myself along the way. Every time I thought I'd reached the root, issue(s), I'd find something deeper. I now believe I've found the truest core roots and solutions...

This issue and my trauma has led to issues with work that may compromise my current role. I need to take this seriously. Been getting more into trauma release stuff and meditation and have signed back up for a meditation group. I am also considering a reward system for my efforts.

I need to be clearer, I know they aren't scientific however I'm interested in nonduality and transcendent experiences. I'm also interested in structured paths. So while I will not be joining a 12 step group, I've made my own versions of the 12 steps as a extra bit of spiritual guidance in my...

I still edge a lot and when I know there may be sexual content somewhere like a book, I still go fishing for it. Otherwise no major setbacks today.

Sadly after writing this I had a slip in bed so this post took place prior to that and is no longer accurate. Success rates are going up. I've never had a great streak but I've stuck at things longer than I have before and that's saying something. I'd like to get my rates up on doing this...

Agreed. I want to join more Buddhist groups again. This is part of me getting back into the spiritual side of things again. Thanks :)

I have looked into 12 step groups for some time, done deep dives on YouTube and found there is more harm than good going to these groups in person. However, I've realised that the transcendent origins of it don't have to be framed in Christian ways. I know people like Maslow believed in...

Binged today. I have this issue: The executive dysfunction from porn use makes me never know what to do. My high standards conflict with my high need for free time. I don't wanna be in my room but also do. I want to sort my life out on the computer but also don't go out and live it. There's...

I have been trying to apply mindful priniciples and just be with my boredom and discomfort. The discomfort is intense. I'm trying to remember that life without porn will feel, for a long time, very empty and unrewarding. I will have little interest in anything but escapism. I'm still reading...

I had ADHD paralysis all day. I had things I wanted to do but ended up doing nothing on my bed. I don't wanna admit to myself that I'm expecting too much of myself either. I remember starting this journal knowing I needed to switch the focus to healing from the root traumas driving my addiction...

I'm gonna start focusing on 10 day increments and success rates and re-evaluate for each one. I think I should reward each one somehow too maybe.

No question prompts today. I've been binging like crazy. I only really thought to come here because of how intense this has been. This issue, I've had it so long and when I say I've tried everything it isn't one of those cases where the person doesn't truly mean it or is ignorant to anything. I...

The needs I am using porn as a strategy to attempt to meet: Acceptance Affection Appreciation Authenticity Autonomy Awareness (self/other) Beauty Belonging Calm Care Closeness Communion Compassion Challenge Comfort Community Competence Connection Creativity Curiosity Determination Ease...