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I'm in the same boat. Making it harder to access porn is a massive advantage since even if I want to get it, I've got to essentially navigate an endless maze of internet in order to find it. It's a good deterrent. But like I said, only I can make myself stop for good.

I've got someone, but I've found an easy workaround that I won't share because I don't want you to end up using it too. In the end, defeating porn addiction, like any other, depends on the determination of the addict to quit. Every day is a battle and you have to be ready to fight anytime...

I've got Covenant Eyes. It's not 100% effective. Definitely makes it much harder to access porn, but if I'm dedicated enough, I can always find a loophole. That's not their fault, though. The software is quite thorough. It's up to me to resist the temptation to even attempt to look. I know from...

I've been an addict for 9 years. I went 27 days, relapsed, and just relapsed last night after 47 days more. You might call that substantial, but if it's anything less than complete sobriety, it's not enough for me. Especially since one relapse usually acts as a domino effect into more of them...

I've been in your shoes before. After every relapse, as the matter of fact. It's been 9 years since I introduced myself to porn and I've been where you're at more times than I can count. The truth is, there's only two options: Continue down your current path into oblivion or get your act...

Relax. Like you said, you know you aren't gay. The reason why gay porn turns you on is specifically because you've conditioned your brain to respond to it. Like with all other addictions, eventually you need greater amounts of whatever you're addicted to in order to achieve your high. For us...

Over time, the neural pathways we've created that cause us to crave pornography go dormant. Sort of like how a path through the woods will become overgrown if left unused. However, the path still exists. It will always exist. And relapse clears the path out. If we keep relapsing, it goes from a...

Day 1. Relapsed last night. It seems I was unable to walk away. I'm trying to go through my mind an retrace my steps to figure out what happened. I was doing well and now I'm back in the hole again. The trouble is going to be getting out of the hole. After a relapse, it's as though your...

Day 17. OCD is still in overdrive, but less so than when the week began. I have to continue to remain diligent. Porn wants me back and fell so much better without it. I need to remember that the vast majority of all of the misery in my life is caused by my addiction. It is without a doubt, as...

Day 13. My OCD is worse than usual, but I'm feeling much better after less than two weeks sober. It's amazing how quickly the balance can shift. One relapse can derail everything yet a little diligence can clean up the mind in short order. I have to always remember there's a fine line I walk and...

Day 11. That brush with porn last night woke up the addiction in my head. I didn't watch any videos, just glanced at the thumbnails for maybe a minute and then exited out until the filter came back up. Now I find myself wishing for the filter to go down again, even though I don't want it to. I...

When you begin to realize how depraved and sick society is and begin acting in a healthier fashion, people may think you're a prude. Hell, YOU might think you're becoming a prude. But we were born into a culture that sexualizes absolutely everything. Our media amplifies it and we accept it as...

Day 9. Feeling better each day that I march onward. A curious event just happened. I was using my laptop and for some reason, the filter failed. I use CovenantEyes to fairly good effect, but I noticed that it wasn't working properly and decided to test it. I got porn. Straight Google search...

Day 7. I'll be a week sober after today is over. Still having some unwanted thoughts and my stress levels are aa bit high, but that may just be because my job is terrible. Anyway, my mind is going to take a while before I can hit my stride again. Went to the gym today and it was difficult to...

Day 5. Mind is still a bit shaky, but I've been recovering much better than I thought I would. I've been thinking about this past year and everything that's happened. My faith has an important role to play here. When I dedicated myself to becoming a better man and kicking porn, amazing things...

Day 3. I've been spared a mental breakdown for the time being, although my ordeal has left me shaken and disturbed. I am slowly trying to pick up the pieces and start anew. I've been thinking about the hopelessness I feel now, the same hopelessness I feel after all relapses. I need to remember...

I've been an addict for over 8 years. I've slowly been losing my sanity and I feel like I'm at a breakpoint. Porn has messed up my mind horribly. I keep thinking horrible thoughts, sexual ones. I had OCD most of my life and porn made it 10x worse. I NEED to escape. I was almost at 90 days...

I've relapsed for the millionth time. My mental state is near collapse. I almost made it to 90 days back in February. I felt like I was on top of the world. I felt amazing. My dream is to escape. So I'll start again. Here we go. Day 1. My mental state hasn't been this poor in a long time. I...

You're a porn addict, which means that your brain is rewired to feel compelled to experience artificial amounts of sexual stimulation that aren't available in nature. Masturbation is still a form of artificial sexual stimulation, and in my experience, it doesn't sate the desire to look at porn...

Porn addiction has caused me no shortage of pain over the years. I've said and done things I'm horribly ashamed of because of the mindset it puts me in. I've suffered literal mental breakdowns because of the heightened anxiety. Times when I was an emotional wreck for weeks on end feeling like...