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    01/02/19 Braved118 without ponography

    Second day of the year and mess it up. Today try to control my anxiety to masturbate. Everything was going great until 10 minutes ago. I feel stupid. Like I was about to sleep but I couldn't hold my anxiety. Like word the I see in my right when I finished a sentence SAIDS "Orgasm". Because...
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    01/01/19 Braved118 without ponography

    Amazing, I never thought I would survive until 2019. In my mind I imagine a big war that I probably was not alive. My first thoughts were " I can't believe on this beginning of the year last year at 12:00am I texting to my crush I never would speak again after graduation and I could never tell...
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    12/31/18 Braved118 without ponography

    Last day of the year. No big deal is just another normal day. Tomorrow will be another normal day. Nature never does something amazing for a new year so why even bother celebrate it like the same thing happens the sun comes up and then down. Guys, I don't know but pornography again passes by my...
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    12/30/18 Braved118 without ponography

    Today was good. According to horoscopes, I am supposed to live happily after this year. I am not sure about that but I thought I never make it until 2019. I had a small anxiety attacked for fear of watching porn. One thing that help me was laying in both hands until I calm down.                ...
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    12/29/18 Braved118 without pornography

    Today I notice that I should not be scared of my fear to fail at quitting porn because if I let my fears take over me I will fail. I think I just need to avoid getting stress. Right now, I am analyzing that my brain thinks that the solution for stress is masturbating or watching porn which is...
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    12/28/18 braved118 without pornography

    I want to say today was great. I thought of what I should do in the future. Last night I had some emotional dreams. But for some reason, I just didn't think of porn and didn't get molested by anything. Question for today what are some things you do for emotional moments?                        ...
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    12/27/18 Braved118 without ponography

    Today, I went to work to earn a little bit of money. It is helpful having a company even if the person doesn't have patience. Today, I forgot what I dreamed because I woke up fast. I regret what I did yesterday. In four days, it will be new years 2019. I remember this year the first moment to...
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    12/26/18 Braved118 without ponography

    It got hard. I don't know what to say, I feel like I change my personality. I feel that I should say I am ashamed. I really don't know what happens. First, I felt alone. Then, I got scared I would see pornography. Second, my mind starts to produce images of pornography I watch before. Finally, I...
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    12/25/18 Braved118 without ponography

      Every day for some reason temptations gets harder to control. This is why after I have not been successful quitting pornography seems I got back to pornography again. I had a dream that scared me out. In this dream, I was in an auditorium watching a dance team perform that I use to be. Soon, I...
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    12/24/18 Braved118 without ponography

    Today for some reason just hearing someone say sex, provoked me to masturbate and orgasm. Did I do it? No, because I knew no one would lose anything but me in this therapy to not masturbate or watch porn. The thing that scares me the most is that when I get married, I won't be able to look at my...
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    12/23/18 Braved118 without ponography

    Today started all good. I got ready and went to a meeting. Then, I was invited to eat lunch so I went. I got a really good meal there. But casually going home I almost die for real. While the driving person in the car I was, was turning right in the freeway at my right a car appear out of...
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    12/21/18 braved118 without pornography

    Yesterday while writing my daily letter i forgot to hit the post. Today I went to the laundry, clean my room and paint.  Today I can say that is scary because I got a blood spot in my below lip. Not going to lie I am scared because I heard it can be a call for cancer. So I told my mom to make an...
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    12/20/18 Braved118 without ponographic

    Today was terrible. Everything was going great when I sawed a video on YouTube about some women in Africa who don't want to marry older man because they don't want to so they created their village. I agree with them. The bad part is that they showed a scene where women showed their boobs naked...
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    Third day without pornographic

    Today I felt some temptation. I spend most of my time in the living room so nothing would happen. I realized that I am such a difficult person to deal with myself. I get confidence for ideas but I don't do my ideas because I feel stuck with my phone. Drawing has help me but I feel my phone...
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    Second day without pornographic

    I feel today was, good. School went well but I still need to turn a paper in about a story. I secretly wrote about my story. About what happened. Of course, I didn't write that this story is real because I feel scared to share my feelings. Basically, scared of people judging me. I already have...
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    First day without pornographic

    Today, was great I guess. I can help see inappropriate jokes are all around the tv, social media, and even kids entertainment. It's hard to not to do. The thing is I already had defeated this addiction but a lie made my dark pass come back to me. The last time I defeated my addiction is because...
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    The Cause Of My Pornographic Addiction

    I don't know if this is you but basically, I was brainwashed. If you never knew this could happen, well now you will know what is like. Basically, I was 4 years back then. I didn't know what I was about to know about the world. The only things I knew was simple math problems, the neighborhood...
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