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It's been a while since I posted. I'll be making this post very short as I have limited time right now. July hasn't been a great month for me. I've slipped up a few times to PMO. I'm glad the slips have been short (not engaging in porn for long periods of time), and I gotten right back to...

Thanks Phineas for the support as always. I'm going through a real tough week, and hope I can bounce back from my struggles.

Well, my stretch didn't last too long after my 6 month free post. I didn't break my inner circle as I had done in the past, but I did search for porn, avoided looking at it, and searched again. And, I did this for an hour. I stopped, realized my stupidity, and called my sponsor / accountability...

This week I passed a big milestone: six months free of porn! What has changed? I spend much more time on healthy activities and recreation. These days most of my weekday evenings and weekends are filled with activities I enjoy. That’s things like spending time with family, friends, exercising...

Thank you Phineas and EW for the encouragement. I'll keep this post short. Today was a much better day. I focused on recreation and rejuvenation and those were exactly what I needed. I felt freedom from porn, enjoyed the day, and was productive generally. I'm hoping for the same for the rest...

I've had lots of ups and downs in the last few weeks. Some days were good and others weren't. Today was one of those not so great days, where I've been middle circling so much that I searched for porn. I stopped though before viewing and reached out to my sponsor / accountability partner for a...

This is awesome! Keep up the great work!

Coming back to report that I struggled today as well and spent a lot of time on social media (instagram and tiktok), resulting in watching triggering stuff. I'm not proud of it but I did stop myself and did not watch porn. My mind was in a blur, I was very vulnerable and considered seriously...

Thanks Phineas for the encouragement! I'm here to post that I've been struggling in the last few days. It's been really tough. Yesterday, I fantasized in the middle of the night and stopped just short of MO (thank goodness!). And, this morning, I wasted quite a bit of time on instagram and...

Thanks ShadeTrenicin for dropping by! I'm going to talk about one negative and one positive in the last few weeks. First the negative. I've been triggered due to social media, especially instagram and tiktok. I have been middle circling a few times a week by looking for triggering stuff to...

It's been a while since I last posted, but things have been well overall. This week I'm feeling intense triggers and urges, which gave me reminder that maybe it's time for another post in rebootnation. I am very grateful that I've stayed away from PMO for about 4 months now. I haven't been very...

I've been more vulnerable than usual and had fantasies pop up often in the past week, both during the day and while going to sleep at night. I can't pin point why this was. It is possible that I've been more tired because of work and family life. I do want to report that engaged in middle...

This post is about respecting my limits and avoid putting myself in triggering situations that takes me straight back to porn. Two limits I respect are: no fantasy at night while sleeping and no short videos on social media. The first one, fantasy, makes it more likely that I will MO during...

Thanks Phineas and joyfulhealingmetta98! Today I'm 102 days free from porn and 65 days MO free. I'm grateful that things are so much better for me than before. I still do get urges, but they happen about once a week or two and go away quickly. The key for me is to remain vigilant and not let my...

Orbiter, it's so good to hear from you even though you've been struggling. I can relate with you because this is exactly how I've felt for so many years. I understand. This is the exact conclusion I came to sometime last year. I decided that instead of simply posting my day count regularly, I...

All okay Orbiter? We haven't heard from you in a while. Hope all is fine.

Day 85 P-free and 48 MO-free. Really tired at the end of the work week. I'm going to prioritize rest and relaxation this weekend. That's going to be most helpful for my recovery. Wish you all a good weekend.

Day 74 P-free and day 37 MO-free. I recently engaged in sex again and it was amazing because I could keep it up the whole time. I had ED problems before but did not experience it this time. I do struggle with fantasizing when having sex, but I'm healing. Next time, I'll focus on avoiding...

Thanks EW, I also have the same problem of "I'll figure it out on my own." It's when I started seeking help for my addiction that things took a turn in recovery. You have a great point: I'lll keep an open mind as I continue my sessions and try out other therapists when appropriate. Day 68...

Hi Orbiter, sorry to hear about your recent struggles. Personally, I've felt the hopeless so many many years. I know you're going to get right back up and keep working your recovery and beat this addiction. I think you've hit the nail on the head on taking care yourself by exercising and...