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  1. ShadeTrenicin

    HE'S BACK! I've finally stopped. Now to hold on. My story to recovery

    Hey all, thanks for all the comments. Im doing well, day 9, and deliberately not going on to much as a new approach. Sorry for not being here to support others at the moment. Wish you all well of course. Take care
  2. ShadeTrenicin

    HE'S BACK! I've finally stopped. Now to hold on. My story to recovery

    Hey Orbiter! Thanks a lot for your post! It means a lot to me. Ive been struggling and I've had to come to terms with the fact that I've outsmarted myself with regards to the limitations on the router. Somehow that was a big emotional setback. I've been trying to recenter and come up with a...
  3. ShadeTrenicin

    HE'S BACK! I've finally stopped. Now to hold on. My story to recovery

    Thanks @particularly_respecting . Today is day 9. So the stuff with the router, the training wheels so to say, again didnt work out. A little technical; i want to force a specific DNS on my router and block sites and any kind of porn. On my own router i could do that but somehow that doesn't...
  4. ShadeTrenicin

    Escape Velocity - Orbiters Journal

    Hey, Orbiter. I think it's great that you got control of the situation and stopped. This is a pretty significant action imo. Because it shows awareness of what is going on and how you really feel. It means that, although you went on autopilot to watch P, you've grown to see the impact it has...
  5. ShadeTrenicin

    HE'S BACK! I've finally stopped. Now to hold on. My story to recovery

    Thank you all for the reactions, they really help! Day 8 today! It's amazing how time flies. And although the last two days were very difficult I managed to persevere. I am absolutely knackered so little imput from me at this point. I only want to report that today I finaly have time to fix...
  6. ShadeTrenicin

    Escape Velocity - Orbiters Journal

    Hey Orbiter, great going!
  7. ShadeTrenicin

    HE'S BACK! I've finally stopped. Now to hold on. My story to recovery

    Thanks a lot Phineas! To restrict, or not restrict, I've been mulling this over in my head for the past days and for me i'm now positively sure the number 1 trigger is the ability to do it. It has been like that ever since my wife and I moved in together 12 years a go. Whenever she went out...
  8. ShadeTrenicin

    Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation

    This is an excellent question! I think a lot of us sometimes forget that we're also just men. Physical beings with a natural attraction to attractive women.But it can sometimes be confusing to seperate that from addiction. Also I see a lot of reports, but if I may ask what plan/approach are...
  9. ShadeTrenicin

    Escape Velocity - Orbiters Journal

    Hey orbiter, you're doing great work with looking into AVRT and The rumination video. The post-lapse slump at days 2-6 are a mess (same boat here) but just a couple more days and you'll be better. It's like you said in your post. It's knowing that it's part of the plan (acceptance) and then...
  10. ShadeTrenicin

    At it again - struggling with keeping myself motivated?

    Hey BridgeTri.. Please elaborate. What happened, when, where, how, how were you feeling, how were the days before, what were your thoughts, any specific triggers, mood.. etc. Those are a lot of questions, I know. However they all serve a purpose. Relapses are part of the journey, but only if...
  11. ShadeTrenicin

    Pride and joy

    Great going P_R. 14 days is a great achievement. I recognize the amazing feeling that you can get from sharing with the spouse. It's a very nice way to just let go of certain things. And it feels a lot nicer than PMO don't you think? I'm also glad to read that there are changes coming for you...
  12. ShadeTrenicin

    It ends here.

    Keep going friend!
  13. ShadeTrenicin

    HE'S BACK! I've finally stopped. Now to hold on. My story to recovery

    Hey Orbiter, Thanks for your insights and well wishes. They mean a lot! As per the focus on internal / external i'm heavily debating at the moment. I think they are both important. But ultimately it's about the internal dialogue as that is the one that decides whether or not on how to act on...
  14. ShadeTrenicin

    Escape Velocity - Orbiters Journal

    Hey Orbiter, Sorry to hear about your lapse. But I commend your reflection on it. Personally dealing with exhaustion / substance use is something I struggle with as well. And, I don't know about you but I'm coming more and more to the conclusion that every time we allow ourselves the usage...
  15. ShadeTrenicin

    Accountability (update 09.07.22)

    That's the spirit! Take it day by day. Well done on not giving in when your wife was Away. (That is 100% recognizable for me). Feels good not to give in, right? Kep going strong. I'm rooting for you
  16. ShadeTrenicin

    im 35...im in the last few minutes of the game and want to give it my last shot!

    You should feel proud! Youre doing really well! Keep it up
  17. ShadeTrenicin

    At it again - struggling with keeping myself motivated?

    Hey friend. Although this is a "setback" its also part of the journey. Dont also forget that youve spent 15 days without P. That also counts! Keep going strong
  18. ShadeTrenicin

    HE'S BACK! I've finally stopped. Now to hold on. My story to recovery

    So today is day 2 and ive had a really good day in terms of productiveness. Yesterday as well. Two days ago was a relapse ai could've seen coming a mile away. This a part of the self honesty I've been talking about. I know I was thinking towards the bad end; you see an attractive actress in a...
  19. ShadeTrenicin

    Pride and joy

    From what I understand from my wife is rhat there are a lot of OF account holders that are promoting their OF in random topics and through personal messages. On top of that there are a lot of nsfw topics as well... So while it can also be a helpfull site, it's also a massive source of triggers...
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