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  1. Gigili

    The path to a fresh life

    Days of no PMO: 53 I know that I don't write in this journal daily but I don't want to abandon writing altogether. I usually write when I don't feel well. I think this reflection process is helpful. It's interesting that the days that I feel down, I think it will never end, I will never feel...
  2. Gigili

    Rebooting trough self-parenting

    Hello EarthWalker. Thank you, that was a clear explanation. I can understand what you mean now. In fact I can recall I read this concept in a book called "its not always depression". Suppressing emotions is what I do a lot as well. Until recently I was so numb that I couldn't feel any feelings...
  3. Gigili

    Rebooting trough self-parenting

    Hello EarthWalker, I hear this a lot that we should feel the negative feelings but I don't know why or how. I thought when we feel sad we should do something (not P) to change our mood, like for example walk outside, take a cold shower, etc. I feel sad and down a lot these days. And I don't...
  4. Gigili

    Taking back my dignity

    Yeah, this is the problem with living in a modern world with parts of our brain being evolved for life in stone age. Sometimes I feel we are sort of half baked species. Our environment have evolved faster than how our brains can evolve.
  5. Gigili

    The path to a fresh life

    Today I am not feeling well. When I feel down and depressed, I think this bad mood will last forever. I think I am condemned to always feel bad. I feel there is no escape. I cannot sleep well at nights. Heavy dreaming and nightmares so I feel sleepy and tired. I am not sure whether it is...
  6. Gigili

    The path to a fresh life

    Days of no PMO: 38 Overall I am not doing bad. The depression is still there although I feel a bit better these days. I have urges and P dreams which is to be expected. I am trying to make small changes in my lifestyle. I keep the changes small because I am afraid if I start big, I will fail and...
  7. Gigili

    The path to a fresh life

    Hello Canguro. Thank you tor replying; I really appreciate it. Yes, battling depression and P at the same time is like battling two evils at the same time. It is't that easy. Some mornings I have very little energy to get out of bed and it is a trigger by itself. I have started going to the...
  8. Gigili

    Taking back my dignity

    Yeah, I also have P dreams these nights. I am on my day 38 and I have dreams of P every other night. I sometimes yell at my brain "WHY ON EARTH ARE YOU WORKING AGAINST ME!". It wants P and I ain't giving it P.
  9. Gigili

    The path to a fresh life

    This is my second thread in this forum. I am a 33 Y/O and married. I was addicted to P as long as I can remember. Last year I started a streak that lasted 90 days but I relapsed. I had to work from home at that time and staying home alone for long hours was a huge trigger that I could not...
  10. Gigili

    Hardest Part Is Restarting

    I also had the problem with the social media. I first deleted Facebook and Instagram from my phone. Then I realized that the phone itself is a trigger for me. Most of the time I just check my phone out of boredom then I get more bored ending up in PMO. Last week I did the right thing and...
  11. Gigili

    Hardest Part Is Restarting

    Is the monk mode really possible these days?! I feel everything around us is sexualulized. Unless you lock yourself in a closet, you will encounter something during the day. Either on the internet, on street, on TV, etc. We can limit it though. But it won't take long until you see something...
  12. Gigili

    Hardest Part Is Restarting

    This is a familiar pattern for me. When you do it once after a streak, it is very difficult to limit it to just that one time. You will end up PMO-ing the next days/weeks. It takes some time to again get the motivation and start over again.
  13. Gigili

    The journey continues

    I relapsed. It has been 10 months since my last post in this forum. I made it to 90 days milestone but long days of staying at home alone due to Covid finally took its toll. I got depressed and couldn't resist anymore. I was struggling with depression for quite some time. My physician was...
  14. Gigili

    The journey continues

    He everyone! This is my first journal posting. I am a 32 y/o married man. I have been addicted to porn since I was 15 y/o, so roughly I am addicted for around 17 years. Like most men of my age, I started porn with erotic pics which soon evolved to porn videos. Unlike most people who are...
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