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Day 29 As I thought, tuesday and wednesday were busy and easy to abstain days. However, those days left my quite tired and today I can feel the waves of urges hitting me. Thought I’d write here already in the morning to try and clear my mind and re-focus on my goal of not watching porn. Today...

Thank you Blondie! Day 26 Came back from holiday energized, but immesiately faced the stress of work. From today until Wednesday it is fairly busy which probably keeps me safe from relapse. From Thursday the real challenge begins as I must work from home long days and boredom starts creeping...

Day 24 (coming back again after a while) I’m currently on holiday with gf and thus it has been easy to achieve a longer beginning of a streak. However, knowing myself, the risk of relapse grows as I return back home. Especially on days when i work remotely. I decided to increase my chances of...

Day 5 Yesterday I felt was a kind of watershed day for me. I needed to work on a project alone from home and historically this is very bad for me rebooting-wise. But, I was well prepared having eaten well, exercised and kept up meditation habit. I managed to finish my project. This is a huge...

Day 0 Long pause from posting again, which might be one contributor to lost streaks. Not much more to say, let's get back to saddle. I'll analyze more as days will pass.

Day 1 This day was easier, because I didn't spend that much time alone and also because I got to rest yesterday. Now trying to find balance again. See you later

Day 0 Last couple of weeks have been a bit rocky with 5-7 relapses in total. I have increased exercise quite a bit, which seems to be a double-edged sword: less urges because I'm channeling my energy, but when I overexert I lose energy and I'm more likely to fail meditation practice and things...

Day 14 This week has gone surprisingly well. I've not only managed to abstain from PMO, but have been way more productive than earlier this fall. Not to say that there haven't been challenges, as couple of days I've been sure that my behaviour would lead to relapse, but somehow I've managed to...

Hi, just stumbled upon your thread and wanted to say good job on 40 days! And best of luck going forward.

Day 9 I've somehow avoided relapse for last two to three challenging days. I have lots of things to do, but I've also had times when I'm home alone and I've been sure to end up relapsing, but somehow I haven't. It might be the meditating making me more mindful of things, but I shouldn't things...

I agree. Meditation appears to give some clarity of mind and it's easier to sense thoughts wandering towards PMO. Day 6 Meditation might well be the thing that saved me today. Started morning off great with meditating and working, but then got lazy around noon. Despite spending time home...

Thank you! Every bit of encouragement is golden at this stage. Day 4 Pretty smooth sailing as I'm again having couple of days without alone time. Except, yesterday I managed to leave our place early in the morning in order to study, so that is promising. Also, I've managed to keep up...

Day 2 As anticipated, easier two days since I haven't had any time alone. Tomorrow will be a greater challenge, but I have some plans to reduce risks of relapse. On a positive note, I've been meditating a bit more frequently lately. See you next week.

Day 0 Another day of two relapses. These are the days when I feel the most sickened with myself. Life has given me so many opportunities and I simply waste away masturbating to pornography. Getting tired of this. At least there are couple of new sites to add to my blocker. And as of today, I...

Day 0 Well, as I feared, remote working was the downfall of this short streak again. I had a break from work and watched a youtube video, which was unexpectedly triggering and I relapsed. Next time, I must switch location of remote work earlier in the day. See you later.

Day 6 Easier couple of days, since I haven't had any time alone. Now the hard part begins: I'm working remotely and when working from home, the temptation has often times lead to a relapse. Now my plan is to go work in a separate room we have in our building. If that doesn't seem to work, I...

Day 4 Back again. Updated the first post in an attempt to start journaling here again, since for me it has granted the best results in abtstaining from pornography. Since last years attempt, life has went pretty well and I would still consider my self somewhat high functioning porn addict...

Day 7 Got sick right after last post. Covid negative though. Usually getting sick has diminished my willpower a bit and made relapses more likely. So I should take extra care not to trigger myself. See you tomorrow Dantes

Day 6 Well hello again, with great shame and humbled by last year's experience I announce my return. Since my last post, I've had some streaks of 14-21 days, but no real breakthrough. I got overconfident and thought I wouldn't need this forum. I also acted like I didn't care about my...

Day 20 Stopping by. Mind is pretty empty currently, just spent a two week long holiday and tomorrow work etc starts again. Living with girlfriend now after a while means less time alone inside our house so less chances to relapse. Dantes