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    Please, no more...

    Day 23 I am a fuck up I did so well and relapsed last week I gave in - watched porn and masturbated twice I feel like shit What the hell is wrong with me? I actually know what the problem is... I am fucking lonely I went looking for some type of interaction and ended up on a chat room where I...
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    Walking on the Water

    Awesome scripture. Thank you for sharing. Amen
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    Day 6 Had an OK day Kept busy and active but my mind was all over the show. I am doing research for work and had to keep stopping myself not to take a quick detour into porn territory. It is just too easy. f#(& how I miss the pre-internet days. Born in the 70s we spent much more time actually...
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    Day 5 Was a good day Took it slow, kept my mind occupied Helped around the house (even did some ironing - scored some points with the wife :)) Went for a 5km walk with the kids
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    Thank you for taking the time to share some of your insights with me I appreciate it Feeling shame and guilt afterwards has been such a big part of who I am. The truth is that I used to justify those feelings as being stupid. Masturbating is normal and everybody does it, blah blah blah I agree...
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    Walking on the Water

    Stay strong Will pray for your recovery
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    33 days

    Hi U need to dump your porn collection. Right now. Today. I know it is hard but focus on the reward. Routing for u
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    Day 4 Temptation temptation Yesterday's sex has me horned. I don't want to push my luck as my wife is also dealing with my addiction. But I am fighting back. Exercised and meditated this morning. Helping with the household chores. Fuck this is hard
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    Day 3 was a good day Got up early and went for a hike with the kids. Fresh air and exercise seemed to do the trick to keep my focus elsewhere. Had a nice surprise too. Had a shower when we got back and found my naked wife waiting for me. Decided to just enjoy the moment and managed a decent...
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    Thank you Jerry Not giving into temptation is the hardest not to do. My brain feels short circuited. On the one hand I know that this is wrong but on the other hand my brain wants it. It is a constant battle of will. I actually realize for the 1st time what drug or alcohol addict must go through.
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    Day 2 Not going to well Started OK this morning. Meditated, exercised and got my head into work mode for the day. Suddenly I am overcome with this need to masturbate. I am not particularly horny or anything. Its just as of my mind is yelling "do it, do it, do it" But I am determined not to give...
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    Hi Kelvis Thank you for taking the time to write I feel your pain and frustration. All I can say is be strong AND remove the temptations. Lets be honest, we are not strong enough yet to resist these demons. You already have a game plan however, focus on one thing at a time and take it from...
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    Prayer for today: Father, it’s hard to admit I’m fragile. The world encourages me to be strong and self-sufficient . . . to take care of “number one.” But I am fragile. I’m weak. And I’ve experienced brokenness because of my own failures or the failures of those around me. Once again, I ask for...
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    Well done on the 34 Days achievement. May I ask do you feel different? Have some things changed for you? I will definitely be staying busier and focusing my time on more productive things. I just hope that I will be able to stand strong against the Demons when they attack Thanks again for the...
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    Thank you for your words of encouragement. Thank you for your kind words of encouragement. 60 days; what an inspiration. I will definitely put your advice to use. I will overcome and succeed. Best of luck to you as well on your journey.
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    Hi Kelvis As I read your response I feel ashamed for wallowing in self pity. It took me forever to write my 1st journal entry as I did not want to come across as pitiful. I posted it anyway. You have made me realize that there are guys out there with way more shit to deal with. I applaud you for...
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    The last 5 years have been hard And I have now had enough Enough being and feeling alone Enough being a pathetic loser I am 45, married and father of two. My wife and kids are all I have and I am afraid that I may lose them if I do not change once and for all. In truth I live a secret life that...
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