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Day 148 I’m in a dark place.. Couldn’t post here often, don’t want to continuously post negative things. I’ve had some sex this time, with mixed outcomes. Sometimes it goes great and I even last quite satisfactorily long (30 min+). But I’ve had sessions of nearly pre-reboot PIED, particularly...

Day 105 I had a dream that I relapsed today. very vivid dream damn it.. and the whole session felt so realistic... my brain remembers even tiny details of the layout of the damn P-stream sites... But it generally went well this week. Had some very good PIV sex. The P dreams are back it seems...

Day 101 Something interesting happened today. I had a really bad outcome at work. The kind that would send me right into a psychological abyss of no self confidence if it had happened anytime in the past. But I felt weirdly at ease. Got together the things that were at fault and just approached...

Day 100 Wow I never thought I could have made it to 100 days without watching P. This thought itself gives me some optimism. Slept together with my so without having sex some days ago, since she was completely exhausted, and damn I was hard all night. No touch no anything. Just being close to...

It is a lot more healthier way of thinking, what you are describing. Real life is not Porn indeed.., it is just that the brain needs to fully get it.. As I said, I logically understand that this is the way to go. But when I am overwhelmed by negative emotion, these P-inspired thoughts prevail...

This is a post full of negativity. I am not in a good mind state.. Day 93 Here I am, having completed the "basic package" of 90 days reboot. This comes with an important, albeit heartbreaking, realization. In the previous days I had the best 2 sex sessions until now. Left alcohol out of it of...

Congrats on reaching a week man. Love that point. This addiction is testing us multiple times within the day waiting for us to let our guard down, to strike. And all those key moments of clarity where we make the right choice can add up to the big victory in the end. Can't stress enough that...

Hope you get to take full advantage of this man! being more social at work and taking responsibility of more "social" work tasks has really helped me as well! Good that we can use work as a tool against this thing!!

Day 87 So today, on the world's most unexpected triggers: Hurt my hand in the gym and had to immobilize it in a cast. So right when I sat in front of a computer and tried to type, for the first time in 3 months, I typed on the keyboard with one hand.. Weeeell my brain instantly got in the zone...

Been in social anxiety land for so long that I found it fascinating how one can use a social event as a "jumpstart" for other social activities. The brainfog prevents doing this first step that will support more socializing, so if you get over it, it kinda works out from there! Glad to see you...

Social anxiety is one of the greatest battles, and it seems to go well. For me, the greatest difference is definitely the tolerance to failure/upsetting someone. It used to be overwhelming for me to have disagreements so I would just stay silent. Now that this has weakened, I find it much easier...

Maybe the best course of action is to wait everything out and have full on sex only when totally healed. This way one does not risk losing confidence and throwing it all away from a few missteps.. I feel in this stage of the reboot PIV is totally possible, but only in a very controlled...

Important milestone man! Kinda reinforces the idea that you are done with P in inside the brain! Keep it up and stay strong!

Day 85 There is so much workload these days so I am focusing on work, and rewiring continues with a lowered rate.., haven't had the chance to post regularly here... There are signs of progress, but also some setbacks... Progress: I have noticed that I am significantly more efficient in...

Day 74 The past days went pretty smoothly in terms of urges. Really sunk into work, so my mind kept busy most of the time. Well having real sex also helped a lot.. All this does lead to a confidence boost, and gaining some clarity over things. I get a little bit depleted after some days of sex...

Day 70 Quite some additional successful rewiring experiences the past days. Raising my endurance in PIV and things seem to progress well. Gave her some O's from PIV. Still not fully restored my sensitivity though, this is probably gonna need a lot more time. My touch still works better than...

The past days were a huge milestone. Days 61-65 In the days of my vacation, I woke up with stable 100% MW every day. This had not happened for at least 13 years. Thrilled to have this back, felt like a teen once again! Vacation went pretty smoothly. Did have P flashbacks and urges, severe at...

Nice going man! Good idea with the films, Just pre-screen those films for trigger-like scenes before viewing! I have come across unwanted triggers and man it is uncomfortable!

Quite interesting. For me it was an additional layer of escalation it seems, to be obsessed with specific P-Stars. For the first years it was much like you describe, but gradually the hunt for novelty was much more centred around P Stars. Thank you for the encouragement! Day 60 Made it to the...

Day 59 Had a very persistent MW today! pretty nice but that led to fantasizing right after waking up. Not good for the rest of the day... Lost all progress that I made yesterday.. Also getting triggered by names of random people because they have parts of the names of P-Stars (dafuq brain!)...