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  1. Ive Swornoff

    8 months - PIED not cured, even Viagra doesn't help

    I think it's physiological ... an overconditioning of the brain that got it used to "the easy button", to where normal stimuli are not enough. I don't know if you've seen my latest update, but it appears that I have gotten better, although I undertook a dangerous test to find that out. If the...
  2. Ive Swornoff

    You Shall Not Pass!!!!!

    Sorry, I've been absent. I've actually been doing pretty well. But I do have a confession and a warning. After a little over a year, with no ... really viable options, I wanted to test something. I wanted to see if I could still get turned on. You see, I'd gotten to the point where even...
  3. Ive Swornoff

    You Shall Not Pass!!!!!

    The "damage" is re-enforced neurological pathways. It's not physical damage like a physical injury. It's learned reactions that you don't want ... and unlearned ones that you do. I get that it is not physical damage. But it is not working the way it should. It has been misprogrammed. And...
  4. Ive Swornoff

    You Shall Not Pass!!!!!

    It's all gonna be ok. Whatever I end up with, it is what it is. The truth is, porn wasn't even any fun anymore. I couldn't even get it all the way up for porn the last couple of years of it. It was just a habit, and one that was damaging me.... had done a lot of damage to me from which I may...
  5. Ive Swornoff

    You Shall Not Pass!!!!!

    So here's the deal. One year anniversary being off the porn was June 1 ... but I was out of town, away from data, and I've been busy since we got back ... so no "yay for me" post that day. Which ... I mean, that's a good thing, right? I'm out doing stuff. This effort (while still important)...
  6. Ive Swornoff

    You Shall Not Pass!!!!!

    Kind of. I think it will be easier to let my wife in on what's happened after my year anniversary, saying "I've been off of it for a year". My wife is older, way past menopause. Her drive is pretty much non-existent ... which contributed to my use, but I am NOT blaming her, do not...
  7. Ive Swornoff

    You Shall Not Pass!!!!!

    No ... I don't have it in my head it will take three years. I have it in my head it MAY take three years. There is a difference. I'm starting to get a little excited that 1 year is coming up pretty soon, and there has been positive movement. For the record, the three year thing is from a...
  8. Ive Swornoff

    You Shall Not Pass!!!!!

    I think it's getting better. There have been, in the past couple of months, moments where mild triggers started to stir things down there. Nothing terribly dramatic, but from zero to something is an improvement. I'm in it for the long haul. There's no other way. This is the way out. I have...
  9. Ive Swornoff

    You Shall Not Pass!!!!!

    Well I should be super excited. I passed 11 months with no porn. Now I will admit I never went no-fap ... but it hasn't been frequent and it never involves porn and I won't let myself fantasize about it. But zero porn for 11 months. That's something. But for some reason since it's not a...
  10. Ive Swornoff

    You Shall Not Pass!!!!!

    I've mentioned this before to anyone who needs help reframing their lives ... The Art of Manliness website and podcast (and frankly, a lot of it carries over to women as well, if there's no such resource for women). This article popped up the other day, and it's a really good one. It applies...
  11. Ive Swornoff

    You Shall Not Pass!!!!!

    Mmmm ... yeah, I think maybe some. We are to 10 months now. I can get halfway hard without any visual stimulation. Of course, my night wood is a different story. That never stopped, and it's all the way hard. So clearly there is more brain damage to undo.
  12. Ive Swornoff

    Just checking in. I'm still chugging along at 9.5 months. There are signs things are probably...

    Just checking in. I'm still chugging along at 9.5 months. There are signs things are probably better down there. Haven't had much opportunity to "test" that. Occasionally tempted to try P ... "just once" to see if at least I've come THAT far that P would do it again, but ... no. Not going...
  13. Ive Swornoff

    8 months - PIED not cured, even Viagra doesn't help

    I'm at 9 months. 9.5, actually. Same thing. I have heard it is unusual but it can take up to 3 years. I never stopped getting morning wood. I just broke my brain's arousal circuit. The physiology down there works just fine. It's my brain I broke from years of porn which got more and more...
  14. Ive Swornoff

    1 year of Hard-Mode. Rewiring failure?

    I have read it can take up to three years. It depends on how badly you fried that part of your brain on porn. I fried mine really badly, apparently, and looking back I'm not surprised. I will hit 9 months tomorrow. I get night wood ... but truthfully I never stopped getting that. All it...
  15. Ive Swornoff

    Looking for people who had the same problems

    Keep going. 8 months, 22 days for me . This could take a couple of years. I hope not, but I'm not turning back.
  16. Ive Swornoff

    I’m Japanese

    Americans USED to think that porn is harmful, or at least wrong, and many still do. It USED to be more of a religious warning. But now that it's so easily accessible to everyone at the touch of a button, we can now see what it does we know how it does it. And it's not good... it disrupts and...
  17. Ive Swornoff

    I’m Japanese

    Your English is fine. I used to think porn was not harmful. I even convinced myself it could be helpful. But even setting aside exploitation, and focusing just on the consumer ... it is like other drugs. Some people can get by with occasional use -- but when it becomes a habit, and the...
  18. Ive Swornoff

    Addicted for 10 years

    I am so glad it was not available to me when I was in my teens ... and 20's, frankly. It probably wasn't trivially accessible until I was in my 40's.
  19. Ive Swornoff

    The Porn Takeoff

    "And if I wanted to be with some girl, I wouldn't face any problems in 90% of cases. Even during constant porn use. Also, I could always do with just MO, so my PIED wasn't as severe as others'." That was me, too ... but if you keep it up, it WILL eventually develop into the severe kind. Might...
  20. Ive Swornoff

    Addicted for 10 years

    Right. I'm saying don't let yourself go down the path I went down. Plus, I'm lucky. I'm in a really solid relationship. I don't need to worry about finding and developing a good relationship. Other younger peoples' stories tell tales of not being able to get into a good relationship...
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