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Day 2 I have decided for myself that I am not going to watch porn no matter what the coming 30 days. And that decision makes it easier. Because I don't have to keep thinking about it. I also blocked everything until the end on April so that helps a lot. If I think about moments where I did...

Day 1 I feel like have no other choice than to quit porn. It just makes me feel very weak, and I can notice it in my work and private life. Very lethargic and not proactive to get things done. And it feels like people respect me less. Also, it makes me feel awkward around other people like I am...

Day 1/30 I am back again. completed my first day again Yesterday. I really went down a bad path I would say. Wasting lots of time on my phone and internet. I really feel like I have been letting my life slip away from me. And everything went out of control. I know things can only go uphill from...

Day 0/30 So, usually I only feel motivated to write here when I have a succesfull day. And I feel like I am spreading negative energy here by posting my failures. But I think, that it is even more important to write here on days that are not succesfull. So, I came home and felt very sad and...

Day 0/30 Hi everyone, I am back, so the past months I fell back in to my old behaviors. Lot of watching porn, and being careless with my budget, lot of time wasted on social media, netflix etc. Unfortunatly, I have to go very deep before I am able to pull myself out again. And I am at that...

Day 1/30 I barely slept last night. Because of that I chose to drink coffee today. And start with quiting that later. I did some work on my finance, and text i did not reply to. And while doing so I felt really good making my life in order and resolving things that bother me. now I cant turn...

Day 0/30 Hello everyone, feels good to be back. A short summary of what happened the past week. Untill last night I stayed away from youtube and netflix, total of almost a month. But last night I opened it, and watched youtube for a very long time. I actually did not miss it at all. But once I...

Thank you for the support guys! I try to see the positives. I did not go on a binge, and did not watch anything nude and I am realizing I did not had fun while doing it. I do would like to meet her up. But I have to be honest with myself. If I am going to do sexting with her, I am just fueling...

Day 1/30 Back on track. Today I felt very numb en tired. For me it is a crazy realization that I used to feel like this all the time. Fapping all the life out of me. I am glad I did not go on a binge and kept it to once. For me usually, the first 2 days are the most difficult, because I don't...

Day 0/30 Hello team, I have a sad announcement. I masturbated today. The following happened: a girl I met on tinder started talking to me, it started to get sexual pretty quick. And we did some sexting. I got hard, and asked her for a video. I could not resist my urges and masturbated to this...

Day 15/30 Today was a bit of a less day again. I could not get myself to move. But again, I slept bad and ate bad. So that could have been a big contribution to it. I can also not blame every bad day on the fact I don't watch P anymore. Because we have bad days regardless, and I still feel way...

Thanks Blondie. I feel more comfortable with them now that I conquered a few of time. Because at the time it hits, it feels like it would last forever, and a life without is not possible. But now I keep realizing more and more, that I will feel normal again within minutes if I don't give in.

I think it is great you are being honest with your mom and with the message you wrote earlier about someone you betrayed. Great that you are opening up and talking about what bothers you, instead of running. Great example!

Day 14/30 I am resorting a bit back to my old way of escapism. So I have to be carefull. I can see some behaviours slip in which are not sustainable for me. Today I watched a talk show on tv for the first time in two weeks, because it was about a subject I was very interested in. After that I...

Day 12/30 It is 3 AM here, and just finished working so I am going to keep it short today. I felt good today, my friend down there still on vacation, but my balls feel very heavy

Day 11/30 Today, was a bad day, and a good day recovery wise. I was very very close to a relapse. I had to wake up at 3AM for work, so only slept for 4 hours, then worked for 12 hours. So that played a big role. It started when a girl send me a message with nudes and asked if I wanted to buy...

Day 10/30 Today I had a weird day. I had a day off en was very tired from my job. I basically lay in bed and slept the whole day. After a while, I felt a bit bad when I woke up. But I did not take care of myself. I had a good meal and water and felt good again. I feel like the longer I am away...

Congratulation on having the balls to post here after you reset the counter. Being honest to yourself in most important part in my opinion. Like I mentioned in my other post, maybe you could check out the metascript method by universal man. So you can learn where it went wrong.

To stay away from my phone, social media. I always try to have my book closer to me then my phone. So if i feel the need to distract myself because I am bored. I grab my book and read. Also, what I do is journaling. Ofcourse, I journal here every day to keep my progress. When I am stressed or...

Day 9/30 I noticed I still have some of my addiction tendencies. Even though I dont scroll social media, youtube or porn. When I listen podcast or music, I keep clicking on new music and podcast to just keep distracting myself. Looking for a rush. But small steps at a time. The dopamine from...