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  1. derp

    Tales of Ordinary Masochism

    Been a few weeks but I'm committed again now. Need to be committed permanently, regardless of a relapse. Need to have a clear reason why, regularly remind myself of it and constantly revive motivation. I will stay committed like this until I reach three months without it. Fantasies of...
  2. derp

    Tales of Ordinary Masochism

    Just relapsed again, twice.
  3. derp

    Tales of Ordinary Masochism

    Relapsed two days ago and then yesterday. Some days it's extremely hard to do anything and it seems like it's my mind demanding porn and nothing else, especially nothing hard. I didn't need to relapse yesterday. I could have kept going. I have extreme cravings from early to mid afternoon and...
  4. derp

    Tales of Ordinary Masochism

    Yesterday I relapsed after a week. I am not too bothered. What I have done in the past is only count singular, long streaks as progress, but I now realise that this is stupid, and I should simply keep going (still refreshing the streak), instead of having a long period of continual use building...
  5. derp

    Tales of Ordinary Masochism

    I am at the end of day two. I scraped through today somewhat shamefully. I was drinking last night which makes me feel terrible, mentally, the next day, giving me heavy cravings. I spent most of the day fantasising and then ended up browsing through photos of mixed wrestling I found on Facebook...
  6. derp

    Tales of Ordinary Masochism

    I relapsed after five days and have had another five day streak since my original attempt. I failed the first time because I got a new phone and therefore had free access with no blocker blocker so I caved to temptation. I have since added a blocker, but have been using my brothers computer...
  7. derp

    Tales of Ordinary Masochism

    I'm 21 and I'm addicted to watching big women beat up small men. I've been watching this sort of stuff on porn sites since I was 16 but I've had the kink my whole life. For as long as I can remember I've fantasised about getting dominated and/or protected by a dominant female, in bed each...
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