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    Suffer from 3 distinct addictions - all compulsive

    I've been a long time Porn addict, and have found that I'm at my weakest when I'm also relapsing in one of my other two addictions. Marijuana and Alcohol.  I've refrained from Alcohol the longest and feel strong in that sobriety. I recently started smoking marijuana again (low THC) and I've...
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    Add me to the sorry list of peeps who relapsed!

    Not looking for sympathy...  just expressing my feelings of disappointment that I relapsed... been using porn for a few days now. It had been a good bit of time but I fell to the temptation. The first thoughts I had were about women?s sex drive as they age.  As I let my mind ponder that, I...
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    What the counter doesn't show you... an addicts perspective..

    Look at my counter... I recall the last day that I used porn... I remember thinking (two days before my 4th child was born) that I will never look at porn again.. Sad to say, that since the time I quit using porn.  I have simply replaced one addiction for another. Not long after quitting porn...
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    Perspective on Withdrawal

    Signs that you are making it truly towards the end of withdraw and healing: How do we know when we are approaching the end of this stage of recovery?  After all, withrdawal does not go on forever (although it may feel interminible). What signposts do we have to indicate to us that we are ready...
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    At a christmas family party

    An odd thing happened today.. I borrowed a cousin's phone while we were hanging out at the christmas party. As he unlocked his phone he handed it to me without hesitation.. I knew as he did that that there was porn displayed on the device so I kind of swiped it off the screen before he...
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    Checking in

    I've been away for awhile.. I've been fortunate enough to stay away from porn and haven't felt threatened. I'm curious how porn has impacted my sexual preferences still.. I can recall having bisexual throughts when I was younger (I'm 40 now and I'm talking about age 11ish to 15... About the...
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    Had first dream where i relapsed..

    I'm not sure if its because you been spending time and energy discussing relapses lately, but last night I dreamt thatiIwas in front of pc using porn.... Such a relief to wake up!  It was a little eery though..
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    Talk the talk... but be sure to walk the walk as well

    I've been reading through forums quite a bit lately and given the prevalence of all the counters out there (I finally caved and created one) I find it interesting when I see a relatively low numbers of days without using on a person's profile and yet they're giving such good advice on how to...
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    curious about another dopamine releasing activity

    I was reading recently that marijuana is another major dopamine releasing activity. I never realized this but it makes sense as I have gotten rather addicted to it's use as well (not currently using). I'm wondering what the percentage of users on this forum are also users of marijuana.. My...
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    Other problems with Dopamine

    I'm curious here what other kind of problems fell Porn Addicts have faced.. Given the underlying dopamine chemical driving the addiction I suspect others too would have struggled with other dopamine releasing activities??? I have struggled with alcohol abuse (I haven't had a drink in some...
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    My weakness

    While I'm porn free... I still find myself browsing CraigsList ads.. I've not masturbated to them but I still look.. and I can feel the warmth (of what I presume to be Dopamine) filter throughout my body. I just replied to an ad as well.. So yea, I suppose I'm in relapse mode even though I'm...
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    Another thing that makes porn so hard to resist

    I've been clean for about 5 weeks now and have resisted most urges. Today was the closest I had come to a relapse but I was able to resist and make it through the urge. The thing that makes it so darn irresistible to me is that with porn I would be able to see (and trick myself into...
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    Feedback on article

    I've read through this article briefly and was curious what response YBOP and others in this forum would have. http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/women-who-stray/201307/your-brain-porn-its-not-addictive According to the article, experiments were done and they've concluded that porn is not...
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