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No Smoke: 91 days No Porn: 20 days Today marks an important milestone for me today. I am 5 years sober from alcohol as of this morning. Not a drop in 5 years. I thought I would feel more jovial about it, but now that it's here it just seems like another day. I still wanted to mark the...

No Smoke: 60 days No PMO: 26 days Not going to lie, life has been rough this year so far. My anger turned into all-out rage and I have been struggling with depression so badly that I was beginning to feel suicidal. Feeling like a waste of life and a detriment to my family is the worst...

Day 15 Just thought I'd check in. My mental state is quite unstable. I owe my wife and all my close friends apologies. I am so tired of dragging everyone down with me, it feels like my broken brain is corroding my relationships. I decided last week that it is time to explore the option of...

I have a drug problem. I have an anger problem, a really severe anger problem. I'm currently focused on those two issues, and I'm leaving my porn battle on the back burner for now. My anger and the drugs I use to control it are far more damaging to my life than porn ever was. I know this is...

Day 4 no porn Day 0 no smoke Still not sleeping well. I refurbished my CPAP last night in hopes of better sleep but it was not to be. I'm struggling with not smoking weed. I have a bowl burning while I type this actually. It's harder to abstain at the moment due to having a lot of it piled up...

I feel ya. Same. I also didn't make it thru the Christmas fuckery clean, it's frustrating. I fucking beat alcohol bro, and I can't believe that porn is a tougher opponent. Who knew

Day 3 no porn Day 1 no smoke Fuck man, I just can't get any fucking sleep. Been tossing most of the night, and laid awake for the last hour and a half before my alarm went off. I've been loaded up on opiates, muscle relaxers, and weed for the last week -- but not now because I don't need them...

It's not all bad. Yes, I had to restart my count a few days ago. That blows, but let's be honest, it's not the first time I've started it over. I'll be back up in no time. The days don't matter, what I do with them does. On the good side: my weed is harvested! Yeah buddy, and it's some...

I have a lot to talk about today, I'll probably do it in a few posts, as time allows. We'll see what happens. It was a rough week. First of all, I relapsed. It is what it is. I was out of work for Covid, then I hurt my back and spent an entire week unable to walk and eventually ended up in...

Thanks for the support man, and the kind words. I agree, not what I would call a relapse, but I was trying to acknowledge the slip up.

Day 1 no porn Day 14 no smoke I dunno what happened guys, I started peeking at some porn last night. It was super quick, maybe 5 minutes at the most. I was just fucking around on my phone and bam, I was on a porn site. I didn't jerk off, I didn't keep scrolling -- I exited pretty much...

Day 20 no porn Day 13 no smoke Yesterday was another good day. A lot of things went wrong and it wasn't perfect, but my mood was good and I stayed positive in spite of it all. I'm pleased with that, very pleased. I still am struggling with a little bit of depression, I think because it's...

Day 19 no porn Day 12 no smoke Yesterday was another good day. I think I'm in a really good place right now, mentally. My mental health is not so good a lot of the time, I struggle with depression, anxiety, and moodswings. Especially the mood swings, they are the most disruptive of all my...

Good job

Day 18 no porn Day 11 no smoke Yesterday was a good day, but long and tiring. I still have very low energy, still recovering from being sick. It is what it is. I figured that it would be best not to add more edibles on top of that, so last night I was good boy and stayed sober. I feel less...

Day 17 no porn Day 10 no smoke Back to work for me today. I Guess for the most part I feel well, just still a persistent cough and no energy whatsoever. But I feel like I've done all the resting I can do, it time to get back to life. I'm ready. No porn, still doing good. I'm focused on...

Thanks. I wish I could see the brighter side of things more often. I'm in a positive headspace right now, so it's easy to be positive. Just wait tho, lol. I'm not always positive, I am just as negative when my mood changes. I don't know whats wrong with me, if I need mood stabilizers or...

Day 16 no porn Day 9 no smoke Thanks Blondie, I'm sure we will. We tested positive for covid yesterday. I guess now it makes sense why we feel like so much shit. So we're still out of work. I should be cleared to go back to work tomorrow, she will be out for the rest of the week. Whatever...

Day 15 no porn Day 8 no smoke Oh man, we've been so sick guys, not even funny. The whole weekend we stayed in bed and took cold medicine. My wife and I were miserable, but at least we were miserable together. All in all, it wasn't a bad weekend, just a sick one. We got nothing done...

Day 14 no porn Day 7 no smoke