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  1. ladysudan

    A little support because I want to become Better

    I passed my first year exams of med school. 7 days into 2nd year and now I've to appear for small tests. My battle with porn no longer feels like a struggle. There are some instances where I had wanted the way porn has presented it. This was me craving for something that is not healthy at all...
  2. ladysudan

    A little support because I want to become Better

    Have you ever been in some situations where you are ready to leave people behind but they arent ready to leave you? What have you done then? Honestly College isnt the kind of life I thought I would be having. It just feels like middle or high school minus the bullying part. I hate most of the...
  3. ladysudan

    A little support because I want to become Better

    Wish I could swap genders just to take benefit of it in some situations. Being a girl sucks so much. You cant be out alone in library for late night studying for exams while boys are allowed.
  4. ladysudan

    A little support because I want to become Better

    Maybe I'll give it a shot
  5. ladysudan

    A little support because I want to become Better

    Life update:I went to therapy again after 38 days. My therapist tells me that she sees signs of mild to moderate depression. I'm not engaging in any PMO lately.
  6. ladysudan

    A little support because I want to become Better

    Have you ever felt lonely in a crowded room? today we had a dance competition in our college and it was fun but I felt as I needed at least one person to be there with me and unfortunately no one was. I shake it off saying you're fine on your own. But the reality is college is supposed to be fun...
  7. ladysudan

    A little support because I want to become Better

    Lately I'm feeling miserable...even though my exams went well...nothing changed even though I thought it would change something. I'm not fine. I'm skipping classes. I dont talk to anyone for the entire day sometimes. I refuse to come out of my room where I live on my own. I havent met my...
  8. ladysudan

    A little support because I want to become Better

    So my exams are finally over and we had 3 theory and 3 practical exams and I finally passed in Anatomy. Anatomy is more of a hell for Medical students. I sacrificed my outings, my time with people and lost some friends...just to get a feeling of happiness. With my continuous experience of...
  9. ladysudan

    A little support because I want to become Better

    Exact 1 month of therapy Nothing has changed much tbh I havent engaged in PMO before getting into therapy and also while im in therapy. Part of therapy also involves informing your therapist about what medicines are you on. I have been taking anti histaminic for 2 years (since covid) and iron...
  10. ladysudan

    A little support because I want to become Better

    Whats CBT? Im unaware
  11. ladysudan

    A little support because I want to become Better

    Hi! So some things had happened with me in the past few weeks that were traumatic and some of them put me on self doubt. This led me to overthink about all of it and not letting my brain to take a rest for a while. I was deeply hurt. I became all alone for a while. So negative thoughts would...
  12. ladysudan

    A little support because I want to become Better

    What if you really started loving a person that you wanted to give your everything...your time, your body, your soul, your virginity just to hear them say that you could be cheating behind his back and fucking someone else... I am heartbroken,devastated and shattered to pieces. He means...
  13. ladysudan

    A little support because I want to become Better

    I disappeared for 37 days and I am sorry for that. But A lot had happened so much. I had my 1st semester exams. I was developing feelings for my guy best friend. We would generally joke so much and in those 7 days after my exam where we were given leave, I was missing him and his jokes. I...
  14. ladysudan

    A little support because I want to become Better

    No fap journey in continuation. But nothing positive happening right now. Wish I could be left all alone forever.
  15. ladysudan

    A little support because I want to become Better

    How does spotify know I'm going through a bad breakup? Shit it hurts. We broke up for good but the way things ended was so sudden and abrupt. Has anyone felt that your personal problems just affects and adds on further more to your problems? Ofc he was mad at me. It wasn't as if I cheated on...
  16. ladysudan

    A little support because I want to become Better

    I made a lot of friends in college and with three of them I go to play badminton. I engage in exercise and physical activity for 1 hour daily. Never felt more alive. I am seeing a decreased sex drive and decreased urge to watch porn and do MO. Good thing, I guess?
  17. ladysudan

    A little support because I want to become Better

    Heeyyy guyyysss!!!!! Happy New Year!!!! I got myself into medical school!!!! It was like hell for me to prepare to get into it. 4 months and I again changed my city. Talking about my addiction, well it got worsen for a while. It got worsen because I came to know my ex is in relationship with...
  18. ladysudan

    A little support because I want to become Better

    I don't know how do I put my feelings into words...I'm all a bag of mixed emotions. I had kept my IG deactivated to avoid my friends and any sort of interaction. And suddenly...out of nowhere I thought to check up on people after 5 months.A lot of people I hated back then and now are successful...
  19. ladysudan

    A little support because I want to become Better

    I didn't relapse that day... I ain't falling behind.🙌🏽🤘🏽
  20. ladysudan

    A little support because I want to become Better

    Left him...feels good😌 Having left Pmo for 3 months feels good...but all of a sudden I am starting to realize I'm thinking about whether I should do it or not? It is hard😣...I don't want to fail.
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