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Day 0 Here we go again, starting over. Lots going on in my brain right now as I'm processing. I'm feeling ok, not feeling too beaten down. Ready to get up, dust myself off, learn some lessons, and keep going. So, debrief. Two ways I could process what happened. On the one hand, I could figure...

Slipped a bit, catching myself and coming back. Followed an urge onto Reddit, browsed stuff for a while...probably a relapse, but I'm not stressing about what to call it. Just focusing on pulling back as soon and as hard as I can.

Day 5 Evening at home alone today. Just checking in to remind myself to be mindful, and to not just let my thoughts and urges take over. :)

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Day 0 Had a relapse on Day 11 or so, then another one just now. The first one was a weird one, I had a bunch of time alone and ended up in this weird mental place that I'm still not fully sure about. I had been reading an interesting book quite intensively the day or so previously, and I think...

Day 8

Day 5 Been feeling regular urges, but standing strong. Found some inner strength somewhere, I think part of it is relearning inner awareness during the urges, which lets me talk back to myself through the urges, to actually work through them instead of just being carried along by them. I’ve...

Day 2 Thanks for this response, Blondie! Still musing on how to integrate these ideas. :) I’ve definitely been already focusing on some hobbies lately, like doing some self-paced online courses in interest areas, studying languages, memorizing poems…all stuff that’s really good for me, it’s...

Day 0 Here I am again. Feeling discouraged, like I can't seem to make it past a couple of days. What's up with me right now? Can't seem to get my head in the game. I hate this addiction, except when I don't. Heh, and therein lies the problem. I can't maintain my disdain for it through the...

Day 2

Back to day 0 unfortunately. Had some time alone at home and of course I decided to veg online, and when it wasn't interesting enough I eventually ended up surfing porn on Reddit. 🙄 Feels like I've made that mistake so many times. Nothing to do but get up at get going again though!

Day 4 Been noticing myself wasting more time lately, not sure if that's because I'm looking for dopamine? Staying away from porn though, so it's ok for now. Just wanting to be aware.

Day 3

Day 2 and going strong. It's a day 2 that feels like a lot more... Feeling like I've come so far even though it's just been two days lol. This thing doesn't always go linearly.

How's it going, brother?

Day 1 After my relapse yesterday I found a way to remove the browser that was causing issues on my phone, leaving only the one that has some filtering in place. I've known that path was a problem for a while but haven't been able to figure out a way to block it, so it feels good to have that in...

Thanks @Blondie, doing my best to do that! Back to Day 0 today, but I feel like I'm still making progress. Read recently on someone's thread (don't remember where, sorry!) about a story that's often used in 12 step groups, where a man keeps falling into a pothole every day. Every day he thinks...

Day 0 again, feeling discouraged.

Day 1 Back again, been a while. Overall porn hasn't been as bad the last few months, but it's been slow increasing over the last month or so to the point where I'm looking at something and edging a bit pretty much every day. It's starting to take over again, and I hate that. There's two threads...