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Day 7: The Weekday The Euphoria of victory set in. Finally got that damned car. Then my job finally told me I can go to 2nd shift, and I got a time set to finally learn my second station since you're supposed to run at least 3, but they held off on me for way too fuckin long. I found out that...

Day 5: The Weekend Normally... I'd be sleeping in. Playing games. Relaxing and maybe eating a bowl of oats while watching YouTube and cuddling somehow someway. But the business continues. A man's job is to keep on working even after a point in which he cannot, or even should not. Why? Because...

Day 4: Walking through the Rain Today I'm not upset. I'm moreso just sad. Starting to feel like she's staying this way. Constantly negative, distant, and verbally hostile. I try not to retaliate too much because I don't like fighting. But last night I mainly chose to sleep on the couch outside...

I really appreciate that. 😁

Day 3: The Spark dies. ... I remember when I used to feel like I couldn't ever overcome anything. I used to talk about wanting to give up everyday. At least talking about it to people in my head for the most of it, because the people outside don't understand me. But that spark of care that I...

Day 2: Work, stress, and more work I just realized it was dawn when I explained everything. It seems she kept me up all night while she slept soundly. I thought about waiting until she was gone, or even better, going somewhere else altogether to practice the ritual (that's what I'm referring...

Day ???: An awaited return. So I had to do a load of soul searching and unpacking. And here's my conclusion. ... I feel like I tried to rely on people to get over what I was dealing with. My family has been out of my life for years. I don't think I really have friends. And my SO is... Just...

Day 5: checking in How's it going guys? I just wanted to thank everyone who might've stopped by to check on me, and I wanted to make sure I still came back to make an update on my journey. Things have gotten tough, but little by little, I'm trying harder than last time even still to keep my...

Day 3: Investment So I decided to start reinvesting, and for the first time got back into the gym with my SO. I talked over allot with her and I decided within myself to let go of everything that upset me, as well as to trust her fully and let go of my own past transgressions. With that done...

Day 2: Regrowth Today I found new solutions to getting out of here. I decided to put my everything into us being us, and stop trying to stay grounded around anyone else. I think it comes down to sacrificing life in order to be successful, and sacrificing things that make you feel good in order...

Day 1: Rebirth. I decided to try to fight again today. I did extensive research on why exactly my stress gets to such a point where I don't care. I think maybe this kind of war is a war where you have to have a lot more hope than stress. You have to let your depression go even if you're...

Day 6: The relapse So 2 days ago, I caught COVID, despite following all the rules, wearing a mask, washing and sanitizing, the works. She did help me for a while and I told her I appreciate it, but I was frustrated because due to this, despite the fact that I legit have no symptoms, I can't go...

Day 3: Controlling Uncontrolled Anger So I'm not insecure anymore. But also I don't care either. At night, it was indeed sleep, but rather than truthfully feel bad or get annoyed, or even express anything, I stayed placid. But this morning, I just ended up withdrawing and holding in allot of...

Night 2. I wasn't picked up or talked to for the rest of today. Insecurity tells me she's doing something wrong or she just doesn't care. My strong will to love tells me she's just asleep and made this mistake again, so I should forgive her. I had urges to relapse due to my anger severely...

Day 2: Acknowledging pain without pleasure So since I began my journey without utilizing any porn, I started to think about why I used to use it instead of why I wanted to stop. By this I mean I was researching myself to see what exactly porn "helped" me cope with and handle currently. The...

I just wanted to thank you guys again for your thoughts. Honestly, I dunno if I can express everything, but I'll do the best I can to journal it out. ... I've honestly been introduced to porn at a very early age. But I guess after that it stayed in my imagination. Then my family situation got...

Hey guys. I'm new here, and just wanted to try to find a community to help me manage this problem. ... I've been stuck on porn for a while now, and the addiction to it is really losing control. It actually began after I was taken advantage of, and I guess I went down this route because I wanted...